It was always going to be a fabulous idea to get to write more regularly… Just that the moment I open the page and actually sit down to write… my sight has found something new that needs my attention 
or my taste buds have made a brand new demand for food… like just now I have begun the process of writing… and TWO FRIED EGGS with toast have made their appearance on the video screen of my mind, beckoning me to leave this for a while and cater to the new want
Nothing feels more perfect than to sit at the computer and allow myself the silence of writing what I observe without speaking a word 
Yesterday, on the metro from Delhi to Gurgaon, I spent some quality time reading and observing. There were so many people with so many thoughts, each one racing to a destination with an agenda… of getting there!! It was also quite a laugh to see men sitting in the ladies compartment, exactly in front of the sign which says LADIES ONLY!! Not to forget the child wanting to climb every pole on the metro, quite enjoyable to watch… yet annoying.
Sip of Chai toh bantaa hai
Must’ve been a joke… for the first time since I started using the metro to travel to Gurgaon… it took 90 minutes to get there!!! Felt like the trains were now tired and wished they too got some rest… the energy of the metro felt like it needed a lot of appreciation, I guess too many people, too many trips makes the metro a little tired… no appreciation!! Ha ah ha… Can you imagine, the stories that the metro would tell you… only if it spoke!! Wrote a quick text to my client… that the metro is acting up… and that I would be there as soon as I could… and rested back into reading my book… realised that I was thirsty… called my sister and asked her to get water along… and rested back into reading again… I am not telling you this to chronicle my trip to Gurgaon!!! It is just a sample of how, when we go with the flow of silence… our actions, our observations almost intuitively follow a format of looking within and following through on the outside!!
It is brilliant to stay so silent that you can here “ba khuda tumhi ho” , on the headphones of the lady sitting next to you. And the conversation of a girl with her boyfriend sitting opposite you… while she imagines she’s really soft… she’s letting most of us know, that she is in control of a relationship. giving him instructions while on her way back about what he CAN and SHOULD NOT do
The alarm on my phone has just created another break… the alarm says… “Cleanse Heal Sculpt Reveal” !!! Silence is broken by thought!! I just remembered that a certain Mr. Ashutosh had to call me YESTERDAY!!! ooops!! I had to call back a certain UMA RAI yesterday too!!
The Picture of the EGGS and TOAST is getting vivid… I can almost taste it RIGHT NOW… Proof that our senses can be quite pushy when they’ve zeroed in on what they want most of the time, they’re spoiled for choice… and that results in binging… the phone rings again… and yet I don’t want to leave the computer till I feel that this piece is finished… Talking about the computer… you ought to check out my “Verse of the Day” and “Message from God” today… both brilliant!!! Sometime, I feel that the application knows my thoughts and reveals to me in words, that which I know God really wants me to focus on!!
Blank… Blank… Blank
No words to type… just a bold TYPE FACE on the screen saying “Dee will ya work on the concept note already. You have promised the client they’ll get it tomorrow” … Oh yes, I must… yet… I am enjoying this note… and so don’t really want to stop… minus an edit… I wonder if someone out there is actually going to read this piece… and want to move themselves to a similar experience of the INNER VOICE OBSERVATION process… SEE SEE SEE… this is the next concept, we could put into the KNOWING , born of DeePositive TIMEOUT in silence… ha ha ha … for the amount I’ve written… silence is JOKE… yet I know I am happy that I was able to transcribe the flow of thought in verbatim…
I must read this back… to check for errors… and then … something tells me… this isn’t a conscious piece of work… this is a piece that comes from flow, therefore, any correction would mean… not allowing the flow to flow… reading it back will move me to edit… which is like correcting thoughts… thoughts that have flowed out from the sub conscious to the virtual, through the sense of TOUCH the keypad
Ha ha ah ah… just realise it is 1133 on my computer… wonder what Veer Suklecha would say about the occurrence of these numbers One sec… Let me google it
131, 1331, 1313, 3311, 1133 - These signs indicate a Cosmic 'Yes!' - these thoughts are on your path.
See… how the signs speak for themselves and allow us the pleasure of their company… in the silence of our thoughts… allowing our innerworld the freedom to bridge the gap between where we are… and where we’re meant to be!!!
What an awesome experience to get into my mind… finding a meaning of 1133 somehow, broke into the flow of thought… created an up moment and the inner voice is suddenly silence by the conscious flow of INFORMATION gathered from the NET…
At a PHYSICAL LEVEL… I connected information to process… at the SUB CONSCIOUS level… I just silenced my INNER VOICE for OUTER PROOF!!!
Here’s something NEW to ponder upon!!
How often to I silence my inner voice for outer proof?? When was the last time I allowed flow to flow into my conscious knowing without trying to VALIDATE my communication with me!!
Very rare Dee..in fact rarest of the rares when I allowed the flow of my inner within to flow out! Just a try today..
ReplyDeleteWith this falling of rains today I am feeling to freshen up myself of all the dirts that probably covered me in last few years. Once again I wish to to cover everything of mine witht he same peace of that green that prevalis the mother earth and makes it look sooooooo beautiful and soothing. Once again I wish to smell and praise those dew drops on the leaves and flowers that have the power to pull my heart from within. Once again I wish to have the fragrance of all those buds which blossom for a night yet freshen up everyone who passes by. Once again I wish to sit quiet in the lap of nature and read and write about everything that could bring the innocence and love back onto this land. Once again, once again I wish to draw strength and power from all those age old trees that are standing firm since years to help me retain my strength and values. Once again I wish to hug those wide stems which have stored all the love and care in themselves that could return to mankind irrespective of any expectations. Once again, once again I wish to drool and swing on those branches that give me freedom to feel that innocence and laughter deep in heart. Once again I wish to taste all those citrus fruits from these trees and have all health and life to keep intact. Once again I wish to talk to all the living creatures made by the almighty ...to connect with them..to reveal them their importance and their significance...to pampaer them and whisper in theie ears that they too are the inseparable part of this land...to make them realize that their presence matters for me. Once again I wish to share all my experiences and feelings with al who matter for me.Once again I wish to sit and write in the rains and lap of nature..once again.
Once again I wish to have the same feel when I share this with Dee...Once again!!1
Very beautifully written!!!
ReplyDeleteSometimes, when we write verbatim, there's a chance that we're writing from the conscious WANTING!!! We are drawn to express, the deepest WANTS of our hearts!! It is a brilliant time to understand where we function from!!
WISH is a funny word, it reminds you of what you don't have or feel you cannot access!! It is a word that says "I'd be happier if...."
"I am", "I Know" "I feel" are stronger words to begin your sentences with :)
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