2012 as I felt it ;)

Getting a little rest is a good thing… my body demands that I pay attention to my feeling… all plans have come unstuck and here I am sitting at my computer, writing again… cleansing my heart, opening up the channel of Divine Cleansing.

There is nothing more phenomenal that sharing a relationship in thought word and deed with the creator source, knowing that life is guided and trusting that GOD IS. A year that has brought many tears and the feelings of being stabbed… has just revealed itself as a splendid year of the SHIFT… when sight was delusional and the feelings showed the way.

A year, in which many an illusion was broken and in making a new choice, life has allowed me to witness the MIRACLE of FAITH IN ACTION. This year, I learnt that GOD was testing my “TRUST” factor, and it gladdens my heart, that I followed the prompt and held on to the LESSONS

1) Trust yourself to TAKE THE FIRST STEP… know GOD shall PROVIDE… and GOD shall uphold… in accordance to your CHOICES. He doesn’t interfere with your DECISIONS, he just wishes YOU KNOW BETTER, that YOU can… ALLOW HIM TO LEAD YOU. It is easy to STAY STRONG… when you TRULY TRUST

2) It is OKAY to have a TANTRUM… get all UPSET… but before you ALLOW yourself to FEEL SORRY… TURN to HEAVEN and ASK GOD TO HELP YOU… See a situation HIS WAY (There’s always a LESSON… a LEAP IN FAITH)

3) Know your enemies, they’re the ONES who teach you LESSONS, you’d otherwise, MISS OUT! They come in packages of “promises” they cannot fulfill!! They will put you at ease and then drop a bomb… these BOMBS are the TRUTH, that YOU must move to a new place of TRUSTING GOD! For in your DEEPEST moments of NEED… GOD walks in… in the shape of a friend and fills the gap.

4) KNOW that your INTENT is a powerful tool… use the word JUDICIOUSLY in your SPEECH… it has the power to become a brand new reality! Look back at history… INTENT becomes REALITY!

5) When you are going through a TOUGH PHASE… listen to your INTUITION!! Get enough silent time, to listen to the DIVINE INTELLIGENCE within you… and MAGIC happens!! You will be brought to a place of pure MIRACLES born from ALLOWING GOD to LEAD YOUR ACTIONS!

6) Be the HEARD… not the HERD! It is easy to go with the FLOW of CIRCUMSTANCES and REACT from PHYSICAL evidence and proof… there is always a greater message, waiting to be picked up… and LIVED! KNOW IT and TRUST… That GOD will DELIVER, if you ASK!

7) Remember, you become that which you ALLOW!! Look at your VICTORY in FAITH as a BENCHMARK of SHARING!! Faith PROVIDES what the EYES cannot see… FAITH is UMLIMITED!

For ALL THOSE WHO LET ME DOWN!!

You’re a crazy bunch of people… filled with the NEED FOR VALIDATION! God brought you into my life to remind me, that I need to make a new choice of friends! God invited me… to be stronger through you. I failed to recognise you… for the LESSON you are… got emotional… got hurt… cried… turned to GOD!! You strengthened my faith… and you moved me to a deeper relationship with TRUST! In letting go of YOU I realised, I got too used to carry baggage… letting GO… a gift I give myself! Thank you for the lessons you represent… glad to announce… I AM A GOOD STUDENT!!!

For ALL THOSE HURT ME!!

Damn, I realise now, that the TEARS we looking for a reason to flow… and you were the realisation that I had HELD THEM BACK! Felt the stabs, still do… and it still hurts, because I TRUSTED YOU! Then again, here’s the better thing that HAPPENED… I released emotional bondages, my GRATITUDE to YOU complete!! It was time to let you out of my reality  to make a new space for new people and allow myself the pleasure of new experiences! I hadn’t realised that I had invested so much more in our friendship… than I knew! What is wonderful really, is understanding that I had to make a new choice and it is sad that it took breaking down first to rebuild!! Amazed at the NEW ME… I met… when I let the TRUTH FREE!!

For EVERY CHALLENGE!!

I learnt that you KNOW ME WELL!! You walked it… shook me up… and I was born again… more determined to ALLOW GOD TO LEAD!! So grateful for you… so touched by the KNOWING… that when GOD presented YOU to me… GOD Challenged me to TRUST him in GETTING PASSED you to the VICTORY STAND! Nothing is impossible, when GOD is on your side!!

For the absolutely awesome people I met… I feel so blessed and excited that you made your presence felt and changed my life at so many levels!

For the miracles of a Dedicated.Enthusiastic.Empowered.Positive growth, both, professionally and personally. To the opportunities that made me, open up new vistas of professional prowess… I recorded my first ever track… I anchored 2 events… tonight would’ve been my third… I guess GOD had different plans… and I accept them as the BEST ever. For ALL THE TIMES, someone, called, spoke or messaged me… to remind me that I am in GOD’s LOVE and I shouldn’t ever give up on my dreams!

For all the moments, when a new Idea has walked into my life and led me on how to make it come true. For all the FRIENDS who walked in and stayed as I realised my dreams. For one very special person… “I am proud of YOU” inspires me, each time I hear it from you.

For Ashok, Evelyn, Fr. Stanley, Anthony, Rose, Danny, Rahul, Pranay, Smriti, Rishi, Rahul, Ajay, Sally, Sanjay (Supandi), Sahil, Aditi, Apoorva, Avneet, Pallavi, Vaishali, Shefali, Varun, Uncle & Aunty Bawa, Uncle Sachdeva, Suraj… the many faces of Santa Workshop!! I am specially grateful for the presence of GOD right through every decision, every hug, every welcome & Every GOODBYE I experienced as I took one step at a time… towards Gratitude in Action!

For my family, who have supported my madness and absolute impulsive decisions… love you immensely Mom, Roopa, Prema & Dad!! For being the wind beneath my wings! :)

For the millions of memories and smiles right through the year, that filled my life with so much courage… for all the moments that redefined my choices… I am truly GRATEFUL!!

Today, as I say GOODBYE to the year… 2012… you are in my intent… may 2013 be a year of many miracles… many a S.M.I.L.E.!! May every person you meet inspire you to live a Dedicated.Enthusiastic.Empowered.Positive life!

Happy 2013… as I sign off on 2012!

Shrink your WORLD to EXPAND the VISION of A SAFE India!!

Why does it take DEATH to wake us up? Why don't we live AWAKE to the CHOICES we make... everyday?

As a citizen of India, we ought to understand that every action has a ripple effect!! We are here because of our CHOICES...

1) Female Infanticide
2) Disrespect of Women in homes
3) calling a girl child a burden
4) the act of EXCHANGE and EXPENSES during weddings
5) when a husband sexually assaults his wife in their tiny homes in front of his children
6) when drunken men return home to lust in public and beat up their wives to get them to submit.

We need to shrink our world and begin to spend more time... TEACHING our CHILDREN... RESPECT, GRATITUDE and PRAYER!! We need to TURN to EACH OTHER and COMMUNICATE. We need to INTROSPECT and ask ourselves

“WHAT IS THE ONE STEP I CAN TAKE AS AN INDIVIDUAL TO CHANGE MY IMMEDIATE ENVIRONMENT?”

A time to deal with the TRUTH… that we have CAUSED this moral decay by FEARING shame… by FEARING blackmail… by FEARING that we will be DISRESPECTED and OSTRACISED in society if we tell our truth! We often forget that the TRUTH sets US FREE!! No matter what the reaction… the truth… breaks barriers of FEAR and opens up the gateway of support that only ASSISTS us in making a new CHOICE… a CHOICE to LIVE FREE!!

It is not WHAT we COMMUNICATE... but HOW WE COMMUNICATE that will DEFINE the VISION!!

ANGER based communication will only invite more ANGER based ACTIONS & REACTIONS

BLAME based communications will only invite more FINGER POINTING and that will only create a DIVERSION from the TRUTH… diverting energies… will only take us away from the ISSUE AT HAND!!

HATE based communication will only INVITE hate based ACTIONS & REACTIONS, which will further decay the VALUES, we have understood don’t exist, as we witness the ACTS OF RAPE taking place ACROSS our COUNTRY!

We should make it a PERSONAL CHOICE… to UPHOLD and RESPECT, every HUMAN BEING that comes  our way… we should treat people as people… not commodities… and this can only happen, when we, make OUR HOMES a PLACE OF HUMAN WORSHIP… that is when the the RIPPLE EFFECT will permeate into SOCIETY and the COUNTRY as a WHOLE!!

Make time today, to invite your FAMILY to COME TOGETHER and MAKE A NEW RESOLUTION… to EXTEND RESPECT and HONOUR to EACH OTHER… THIS IS POSSIBLE… and the MOVEMENT begins in YOUR HOME!!!

When a CITIZEN wakes up and makes a change… the GOVERNMENT & the GOVERNANCE will follow suit… this has to be a time of the MASSES to take the lead… protests won’t help… if we don’t begin with helping ourselves.

Don’t be the HERD… be the HEARD!!

Dear Observations… You drive me COCKtale!!

I need to exhale… to smile free… and yet, the thoughts and people that occupy my mind… and PRIME time on television, have crept into my mind space and filled it with… ENTERTAINMENT… that is CONFUSING… COCKtales and MOCKtales, that distract us from the IMMEDIATE need of our time!!

News channels are giving the GEC’s a run for their viewership… and our politicians… well would all be BRILLIANT for BOLLYWOOD!! Creatively Speaking… we should have BIGG BOSS in the PARLIAMENT… and personally I’d still like SALMAN to ANCHOR… a ONE WEEK … edited version for GENERAL ENTERTAINMENT!! Stand Up and Shout COMEDY at its WORST!! Nothing makes sense and everyone wants to be proved right!!

Our politicians and anti-politicians are both WALKING and TALKING “ATTACK”, when will they ever have the time to deal with the NEEDS of the CITIZEN! Could it be that we CITIZENS need to get up stand up and run this country like a “co-operative”? Lets all come together on a common platform… and simply do what needs to get done… I guess, it will distract us from having to spend QUALITY time… worry about ALL THAT IS NOT BEING DONE!!

Children speak “adult” and we think it is “acceptable”… are we too spineless as adults to speak up for ourselves and break the mould of cowardice… it is far easier to TALK the TALK… we all know and have heard. Then again, have we ever thought through? The most powerful CHANGE AGENTS are really experiences… and so, we need to talk more about OUR OWN EXPERIENCES. We are filled with EMOTIONS and WORDS and JUDGMENTS passed ON!!

I’ve been watching Sidhu on BIGG BOSS… it doesn’t take long to fall from GRACE… it is very important that your actions affirm your preaching. Just imagine, had the great religious figures, we follow, every lived contradictory lives? Would we consider them? It is an important part of life to AFFIRM with experiment and practice of the results. I so, wish, someone could whisper in his ears… and tell him… that he is changing his image… with his words and his actions… he’s promoting

DON’T LISTEN: if it is about you. YOU are always right

DON’T LOOK: at your own actions, keep a tab on others

DON’T SAY: anything that “compromises” your dignity… yet, it is OKAY to allow others to feel inferior

Oh Dear Mr. Kejriwal, I am impressed by your CLEAN INDIA drive… YOU must remember, that you cannot clean up by throwing garbage… you will not get India’s vote, just because you dig graves for others… remember… when you dig holes… you are likely to slip right into them sometime. It is important to “get out of the box” in your methodology and find more “co-dependent” ways to deal with the same issues. I am not sure, if the DIGGING graves is the best way… you have a whole bunch of Indians who support you… it is imperative that you CHOOSE your MO wisely… train more people… to STAND UP FOR WHAT IS RIGHT!! Fill the empty spaces with more empowered YOUTH.

We keep RUNNING the invisible race… filled with PEOPLE ahead of us and we prep ourselves by looking back at WHO we are ahead of… in the long RUN… which spans over many life times ahead… does anyone truly finish the RACE? The effects of HOW we conduct our lives… is the FOUNDATION of what many generations are YET to even SAMPLE. Are we OKAY with what we’re going to PASS ON? It is time to STOP long enough to THINK about the generations to come… and what we would like them to KNOW about OUR TIMES, OUR CULTURE, OUR TRIUMPHS… it is time to stop RUNNING… and start BUILDING the FUTURE… we ARE THE FOUNDATION on which the FUTURE IS BUILT!

Life is simple… why complicate it!

The Co-Inspired Life: S.T.O.P

I wil begin where S.T.O.P began for me… to thank the opportunity to celebrate a new life lesson

It all began for me this morning… when I responded to a question… I hadn’t thought about… since Positive Vibes began it’s Facebook journey… a graduation of sorts from being “the secret” community on Orkut…

What got me thinking… well the ONLY three posts from other members… funny, I thought there would be many more… who’d speak for us… then again… those were but, MY expectations . I hadn’t ever thought in this direction… I was so CONTENT with the fantastic CONTENT we create together… just a very powerfully and positively vibrating space of diverse energies… in communication!!

…. what surprised me is the silent questions… that ONLY SOME have the courage to ask… and still fewer have the courage to respond to!! Then again… maybe… it was more about… something else here… I didn’t realise… till later… well, you’ll have to keep reading this piece to find out!!… Anyway… here’s what Gaurav’s query was really about!!

Ouch… I didn’t know… we came across as some SCAM!! ha ha ha… to think of it… maybe… I guess… it was the answer appeared to the visual screen of my mind… I knew WHY… It is the first time… I actually thought about … what it meant to create Positive Vibes… and the why of the absolutely brilliant energy we create together… Here’s what I couldn’t resist posting… at 5 am!!!

What we have created here is a powerful coming together ... Where our turnovers come in the form of personal growth... By sharing with the intent of inspiring each other to reach our maximum potential... Share our fears... Ask for answers... Learn from each other... Our turnover... Is the growth we see in our own lives and the lives of other family members! Our turnover is in the power of all being equally equipped to lead by example... Our turnover is in the experience of a deep trust... Most of us haven't met... Yet we are connected ... Just realised... How precious and amazing we really are.... Had it not been for your question... My Gratitude would've been incomplete... Thank you Gaurav for asking :) :Deepanjali

I slept in peace… knowing… the answer had found my question… and radiated out into my sharing… 

I woke up to another THOUGHT PROVOKING status update… from one of my favourites… Someone… who puts up status messages that resonate into my own personal thoughts… My Gratitude Angel… Farah Pasha!!

I have had the lonely tag… for a larger part of my life… it is an observation… people have made of me… and sometimes… wicked wicked… I’ve used it to my benefit … ha ha ha… then again… what did come to mind… the honest truth… something I hadn’t thought of before… I realised I kinda liked being lonely… strange but true… here’s what LET FLOW… from my thoughts… as a response to this…

First Thought…

In my loneliest times.... I have evolved... I have spent quality time with me!! Understood what holds me back and learnt to move on. My loneliest times are my greatest teachers!! I used to hate and despise them once... cry out of pain!! till one day... in my lonely tears... I realised... I was missing time with me. You'd be surprised, that even now, there are times when I am so lonely, that even silence attacks... yet, if I am in a crowd for too long I get claustrophobic!! Ironic... you bet!! : Deepanjali

I realised, I was either, feeding off my loneliness… then again… what was positive enough… for loneliness to stick around and feel welcomed!! Thanked Loneliness… and here’s what I thought…

Second Thought….

Lonely should then be good... right! Then why does it sometimes feel so bad... especially when we speak about it!! Ha ha ha. I sometimes make loneliness sound like a terrible thing... but I need my lonely time to write.. work on concepts... read... learn... reach out... pray... meditate... think... what would I do without all of this... and it only happens in my lonely me time!! : Deepanjali

The sensational series… of 6 hours… brought me to a deeper gratitude for someone I hadn’t noticed… or acknowledged… ME!!  So , I looked back at the last couple of years of my life… “Reverse Gratitude” (try it!! You’ll love it)… that brought me to a LESSON… I learnt… from the series of CO-Inspired events… that began with Gaurav’s Question…

ThinK I learned it from my LIFE... ;)
The moment you begin achieving... you begin expecting more achievements and stressing... rarely finding time to accept what you have achieved and celebrate it! : Deepanjali

What it brought me to… the very powerful process of S.T.O.P…

S.T.O.P Start.Thanking.Opportunity.Prompts

… two opportunities to thank… so unrelated… yet.. co-inspired a deep gratitude for the NOW of my thoughts… brought a lesson… to S.T.O.P and thank more for what already IS!!

Gratitude to all that IS for all that IS!!

 

 

 

 

The Awestruck Tourist : “ING” words!!

Here’s another blinder… we’ve missed in our vocabulary… ING words.

The Awestruck Tourist… finds proof in the fact that “Common Sense isn’t COMMON after all … So, busy going through the MOTIONS of a HIGH PRESSURE life… missing out on the fascinating clues… all around… waiting to be ALLOWED & ACCEPTED… that they may MANIFEST in their TRUE… GLORY… through you!!

It’s so much fun “Reading Between the Alphabet” there’s a fascinating world of Gratitude… the “unsung hero” of the vibrational WOW. The Awestruck Tourist’s discoveries, that make it simpler to see ALL THAT IS just as it IS by CREATION… PERFECT.

We are all called to live in the PRESENT moment… Continuously… RIGHT!! And yet the present continuous… must have a foundation (the word) … In … NOW that sustains it!!

Ing… when added to any word makes it PRESENT CONTINUOUS… let’s see

Talk-Ing : In the NOW of TALK… present and continuous.

Be-Ing: In the NOW of BE… present and continuous.

Teach-Ing: In the now of TEACH… present and continuous.

Shatter-Ing: In the now of shatter… present and continuous too!!

Love-ing: Love when it is PRESENT and CONTINUOUS… is beautiful.

There must be something about ING that makes it special… something that gives the SUBJECT a sense of continuum…

…. What if… we were to read between the alphabet ING… look for a deeper meaning that can change the very essence of our awareness of it’s “Present Continuous” and silent yet extremely powerful vibration.

Born from INNER GRATITUDE or IN Gratitude or Invoke.Now.Gratitude… three possible ways to look at it… yet ONE vibration holds it together… that can change the very tone in which we use ING words… forever!!!

The Awestruck Tourist discovered…

… staying in the PRESENT CONTINUOUS can be triggered by being aware of the ING words in our VOCABULARY!!

… Talk-ING … is a REMINDER… Talk-In-Gratitude

… Stay-ing Positive … means to Stay-In-Gratitude keeps you positive.

… Manifest-Ing… Manifest – In- Gratitude.

… BE-InG : Remain in Graitude

… You may have many things that you do right now… may things you may feel right now… check the ING words in your speech and you will begin to understand that IN-Gratitude… is a state in which the PRESENT MOMENT finds continuum through YOU.

… There will always be emotions that may draw you to a PRESENT CONTINUOUS state of CHAOS or CONFLICT… celebrate it… for if you’re using … ING to express it… you can turn your AWARENESS to the ING and RE-MEMBER…

Re-Member with Graittude … no matter how distant you may feel from peace… at the end if there’s an ING… you can always break the pattern with a little Gratitude.

For IN—Gratitude… even a very powerful vibrational word like HATE… dissolves in-Gratitude… finds a new path/thought forward…

for the SOURCE we are is Gratitude and to Gratitude we shall return NOW!!

PrayInG, PreachInG , PracticInG, ParticipatInG, ExperiencInG!!!

In Gratitude to ALL THAT IS for ALL THAT IS!!

 

Awestruck Tourist: Conflict

Had to take time out… when “Have To” lists become baggage and life is at a crossroad… the Awestruck Tourist creates a picture that makes it all SIMPLE

Conflict, is a state in which, our KNOWING does not match our CHECKLIST because we’ve chosen to stand in the shadow of expectations of a chequered checklist.

The Awestruck Tourist, is amused with how the conflict trap works… so silently. It’s as simple as YOU WANT … you don’t GET… you BLAME… you fret… you panic… you are anxious… you take action on impulse… you hurt… you hurt others… THAT IS CONFLICT!!!

Somewhere at the very beginning, you FORGOT to RE-MEMBER with the truth of YOU!! Nothing more nothing less… For when we speak of ONE GOD, ONE SOURCE that created ALL THAT IS!! Then, how did, one simple NOT GETTING create series of emotions… that happened to you… by sheer force of the FIRST ACT…. of not remembering the TRUTH of who you are!! When ALL THAT IS has been created for YOU. Why then must ONE single thing, not going your way… make you turn your back on Gratitude!

You learn along the way… that sometimes, it is more fun to stand still enough and let nothing happen… than JUMP to A CONCLUSION and LAND in (proverbial) SHIT!!

You learn that CONFLICT began with a THOUGHT you chose to ignore and it relentlessly kept repeating itself… through the many messengers it could find… for as long as you couldn’t find a reason to be GRATEFUL for the thought… your actions were being dictated to CONCLUDE… to a result YOU DID NOT WANT… to begin with!!

Conflict only arises when your influences are outside of you, dictating your direction, demanding action, pushing for a reaction … concluding that in someway, everyone is inferior than you… the Awestruck Tourist KNOWS

… That ALL THAT IS has a purpose and is created by the same source!

… CONFLICT has a purpose too!! To make you understand that there are shades of LOVE and LIGHT waiting in the wings to tell you their perspective.

… that sand storms, will only move you to WAIT… try your patience… hold you back from taking trip to NOWHERE Yet, there will be a moment… when all roads are clear for you to WALK …. KNOWING!!

… That each day will bring to your notice a new conflict… to remind you that your CREATOR has planned a special banquet for you… if only you’re willing to LET GO of your CHECKLIST and take one step at a time… ALLOWING GRATITUDE to lead you forward… to a destiny designed UNIQUELY for you

… That YOU are the most special person in your own destiny, ALL THAT IS is planned to get you to EVER AFTER… AWESTRUCK by the journey… ALLOWING one CONFLICT after the other to DISSOLVE into a path… less tread!!

… YOUR CONFLICT is YOU… standing in the way of EVER AFTER… because you have CHOSEN to ASK to be GUIDED by GRATITUDE… and yet… you trust not your STEP!!

… YOUR CONFLICT is a myth… you can choose to see the rain as SPOILING your VIEW… or beckoning you to stay long enough to see a rainbow… when the sun speaks to but a drop in synchronicity… Just for you!!

The Awestruck Tourist… sees CONFLICT through the KNOWING of Gratitude from which it is created… waiting for you!! Conflict but asks to be recognised… as it IS… and loved… as it IS… that it may refine you!! That you may, henceforth, find in CONFLICT an ALERT …

….. BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD… for I come from the same source as you… and my purpose is but to remind you to return to SOURCE and SEEK again… ASK again… that you may RECEIVE again!!

That I may KNOW my work is DONE…

In GRATITUDE to ALL THAT IS for ALL THAT IS!!

 

 

Awestruck Tourist :F . R . E . E

F.R.E.E when set in vibration and before it became about “things” was a reminder, just a reminder :

For.Receiving.Everlasting.Enthusiasm

When thoughts are stifled and the road less travelled is filled with boulders to cross, take time to RE-MEMBER… that the priceless, insatiable, infinite… is F.R.E.E!!

Free is a term we often use to express “no strings attached” then again… the marketing genius over the years changed that too!! YOU purchase ONE and get the second FREE  

Then FREE changed the way we consumed food… 98% Fat Free

Then with every bride you get the family FREE  

… and FREE became a “what’s the catch” FREE!!!

Then again… as I walk the F.R.E.E talk… I found a new F.R.E.E that removed old shackles and liberated. 

Come to think of it… We are provided for in accordance to our need to stay alive…

The air we breathe is F.R.E.E

Life itself is F.R.E.E

We are F.R.E.E by the choices we make

Our ability to LEARN is F.R.E.E

Our ability to THINK is F.R.E.E

Our ability to LOVE is F.R.E.E

Our Smiles are F.R.E.E

Nature is F.R.E.E… and so bountiful in it’s expression

Sunlight is F.R.E.E

The waves in the ocean are F.R.E.E

The Horizon is F.R.E.E

… and many more can be added to this unlimited that keeps us F.R.E.E.

Yet…

we’re enslaved by a need for shackles… that we believe keep us grounded… till we truly KNOW that being GROUNDED is a myth…   

Yet, these shackles… are of thought, word, deed… born of our social need to conform…

Then again… HISTORY is witness… that those who broke free from con-form-ing are the con-firm-ing proof that THINK-ING F.R.E.E is a GIFT!! When we can EXPRESS our GRATITUDE for that which is F.R.E.E we are able to G.I.V.E F.R.E.E

Get inspired…

Jesus, Steve Jobs, Nelson Mandela, Mother Teresa, The Dalai Lama, Osho… A child on the street… a single mother… a bird… Trees… Flowers… the waves… just a few pointers the rest… I leave to your powerful F.R.E.E inspired vision

Happy Manifesting.. UN-Shackling and con-firm-ing your own special F.R.E.E!!

 

 

 

 

 

Ignorance IS Bliss : The Awestruck Tourist

For all the years that I’ve used these words, I had misunderstood what it truly expressed!!

and then… I found out… Awestruck… that IGNORANCE is, a positive, most personally That the truth is… What I don’t KNOW does not have the power to affect me and by the time I do KNOW… it has manifested into the NOW of my BEING.

The Awestruck Tourist’s “Ignorance IS Bliss” for it takes away the weighing down of TIME and invites a PERSONAL perspective… that RE-DISCOVERS the creative energy and enthusiasm of LIFE as it was CREATED!! All else is a FIGMENT of SOCIAL TUTORIALS  

You don’t need to know where you’re heading… sometimes, when you ACCEPT that you’re heading… YOU reach where you always wanted to be anyway!!

Ignorance… is a helper really  

…It takes care of RISKS Ignorance doesn’t understand the risk… it only understands, that an action taken… means you’re one step closer.

…It prevents OVER CONFIDENCE Ignorance knows there’s much to learn… and so, will seek knowledge from every source, willing to impart and still follow it’s own advice  

… It guards against COMPARISON Ignorance, is aware of it’s own quest for its moment in the sun. It looks not at the shadows being cast upon the ground. It looks at the sun, blinded by it’s glory… seeking an infilling of power.

… It understands the HYPOCRACY of time Ignorance, does not work by a projected timeline, it creates it’s own path… at it’s own pace. Maybe, Ignorance is where the higher consciousness finds it easier to transfer, purpose and knowledge to.

… It acknowledges the ONEness in all Ignorance, has a deeper appreciation for life as it is. Unadulterated by social, economical or financial pressure!! It continues to see as COMPLETE… all that IS!! Its Gratitude knows no LACK!!

Personally, as I look back and express my Gratitude… the IGNORANCE of the HOW… of each achievement… is the BLISS of the NOW of their manifestation!!

Here’s wishing you “Ignorance IS bliss”… where the KNOW. ALLOW.ACCEPT…. Manifests  

Dream a Little Dream of Me!!!

The most beautiful way to celebrate “Woman’s Day” is to find the pride within… to set F.R.E.E and accept the MASTER’s PIECE within YOU!!

So, with the blessed intent to inspire YOU I am taking the big risk of opening the BIG BUBBLY that I KNOW to be ME!!

Dream a Little Dream of Me (Cover) Click it!! Enjoy it!! I know I did… while recording it!!

I have been told often… that I am talented… yet… I have kept my talent undercover for reasons only my “FEARS” knew best to this day!!

While growing up… my greatest competition has been with me!! It isn’t always fun to be “the limelight” it comes with the pressure of always “bettering your last effort” and that is an unrelenting pressure, phew!!

So, this year… as a special gift of ACCEPTING myself and all that I would like to be… I have decided to set F.R.E.E. the talents I know exist!!

The first talent I ever explored… Singing!! Sang in school, sang in church, sang at parties… even tried singing at a club!! Got applauded… for the talent… got battered for the visual (fat) girl who could never “Make it large” Then again… my voice has been my greatest gift ever… for when I sing… I live a full life through the song… I love myself more… I accept myself more… Music has been my form of EXPRESSION… and every song I have ever sung… has taught me to G.I.V.E my all to it!

So, here’s my song… my first recording… and I took this big step of actually fighting my recoding fears for a very special person in my life… my younger sister… Prema Evelyn D’Cruz who has been my “GO FOR IT, LIVE YOUR DREAM” energy. Another person, whom life wouldn’t be complete without Ashok Singh my best friend of over 24 years.

I don’t know what I am nervous about… judgment or rejection… yet… I am so grateful though… for the talent of singing I am blessed with…

In claiming my place as the LUCKIEST WOMAN IN THE UNIVERSE!! The other day… I began to see… the LUCKIEST WOMAN’s point of view… of herself… and NOW I am not afraid anymore to ACCEPT the WHY of it

I am setting my favourite talent F.R.E.E (For.Receiving.Everlasting.Enthusiasm) that I may ACCEPT that to “G.I.V.E (Gratitude.Inspired.Vision.Exchange) to KNOW.ALLOW.ACCEPT.MANIFEST!!

 

‎ An Awestruck Tourist : Ego & Obligation

The Awestruck Tourist… is a metaphoric of discovering why the tainted must exist… for the TAINTED too has a purpose to serve. Can we not, recognize the purpose… FIRST… instead of

“JUMPING to JUDGEMENT and LANDING in the ABSENCE of the SAFETY NET of GRATITUDE”

EGO… the safety cover:

The EGO, when understood from the powerful source of Gratitude… must’ve been discovered… by an AWESTRUCK TOURIST himself. The purpose… simple… not to allow SOCIAL PRESSURES to completely REIGN over the individual. The EGO has fearlessly defended the HUMAN SPIRIT from CONFORMING to SOCIAL CIRCUMSTANCES… keeping part of the INDIVIDUAL… UNIQUE in THOUGHT, WORD and DEED!!

I am Grateful for my EGO I am… it has shaped the INDIVIDUAL I’ve turned out to be!! Irrespective of the SOCIAL EVIDENCE of failure… to CONFORM. My EGO has inspired the many RISKS… for my EGO knew more about my purpose of BEING than SOCIETY ever did

I NOW ask of you to ASK your EGO to reveal to you… that which it has taught you to SUSTAIN of YOU!! A simple revealing question:

WHAT IS IT THAT I HAVE STOOD FOR… EVEN THOUGH THE RISK and PRESSURE to CONFORM has been high??

OBLIGATION: the action sustainer

A very powerful word… that draws us to taking SUB CONSCIOUS responsibility and keeps us GROUNDED!! There are many “chores” that we’re trained by default to conform to and confirm with actions that support the cause!

Then again… now that OBLIGATION has played out it’s need is reflected in the many triumphant WOW moments of achievement. As I look back and wonder HOW… I realise, back then, I felt like I was obligated to the many people to looked up to me. I knew that ONE wrong move… and I’d have tails wagging. ha ha

I almost LOST it all before finding my feet and standing tall… it’s a repeated event… and I’m now a pro

An AWESTRUCK TOURIST…

…sees what’s wrong and finds what’s right about it.

…understands, that ALL THAT IS… serves a purpose… and the revealing of the purpose comes only with a lot of Gratitude!

… makes time… to smile through pain… knowing that there HAS to be something really good… waiting to be found!!

 

I found a way to LOVE what my EGO does for me… without judging it!! I learnt to LET GO of the OBLIGATION to TRAVEL TO A DESTINATION… GOAL… BLESSED to KNOW that I remain AWESTRUCK by GRATITUDE in Gratitude for Gratitude!!

Awestruck… and travelling again… a new day… a new emotion… a new healing!!

An Awestruck Tourist: If God is FOR us WHO can be AGAINST ;)

The Awestruck Tourist, is a journey of the mind and how we interpret almost everything too soon  

On Friday, in the middle of a rather hectic morning, a challenge arrived at my door… a pretty obvious distraction from what I should be doing… the gravitational pull… a lot of things I had on my mind were being answered ((I was listening to exactly what I wanted to hear… ha ha ha))

In listening to him… the many YES’ to his READINGS ….reflected some of my thought questions! Each justified the NOW of where I am… in comparison to where I could be… had these SO CALLED FORCES not been against me

Yes… I know I am a loud mouth… more often than not… I tend to tell the world… excitedly… that which is conspiring in my life. Long before it has actually happened… more often than not… I’ve allowed the “OPINIONS” of other’s to become my own… and kinda blocked the good from happening Somewhere, down the line… I’ve allowed the spirit of the external to overshadow my inner knowing… my fault really!! Then again… here was an external source… reading my mind… magnetising and creating a feeling of “Oh! The world is my enemy and I am a victim… and this person… has been sent to make things right”.

If you’re smiling… you’ve just seen… in your mind’s eye… a similar sounding person in your life.

As part of our conversation… I fell… THOUGHT, WORD and INdeed for the sugar coated “Aapka Bhala ho, sabka bhala ho” line… till it came to giving him Rs. 1100/- he had me by CURIOSITY and kept me listening… only till I remembered the powerful name of “Jesus”, quite literally!!

…. The Awestruck Tourist…

The fear of the UNKNOWN enemy is a concept we all fall prey to… when all we really need to do is take RESPONSIBILITY. When we’re all created from ONE SOURCE… then we must KNOW that we all have but ONE PURPOSE too… to CREATE!!

Thoughts are energy, without saying a WORD, they can be transferred… and reflect back to you. People can read your FEAR first… why allow them the CONTROL??

We, sometimes unknowingly, invite CORRECTION into our lives… when we DOUBT our own ability to ACCEPT, that our life’s reality is made up of our decisions… influenced by the outside. If we’ve already won the “Survival of the fittest” race, by being born… what then are we competing NOW???

When we’re unsure… we THINK… when we THINK… we radiate… and then… we receive that which CONFIRMS our THOUGHTS!!

When things aren’t RIGHT, we feel OBLIGATED to CORRECT them… why must we CORRECT… why not LEARN and implement a new PATTERN of responding?

If you have enemies… celebrate them… if you LOOK BACK… they’re the ones who made to STAND UP and STAND OUT!!

People USE the power of reading your FEARS/QUERIES and use it, skillfully!! KNOW, that when GOD guides, you are bound to have periodic tests… ASK of him to always keep you aligned to HIS WILL, HIS PLAN… stay aligned in the midst of confusion, so that you may find a new space to be completely… TUNED to the best you have to offer.

Don’t read too much into a momentary LAPSE… it is blessed… to help you understand… that your FEAR just got the better of you. You forgot a very SIMPLE TRUTH!!

“If GOD is FOR US… WHO CAN BE AGAINST??” Romans 8:31

Only an AWESTRUCK TOURIST… KNOWS… that every experience is a LESSON to stay in GRATITUDE!!

Only an AWESTRUCK TOURIST… ALLOWS… every experience to REVEAL GRATITUDE!!

Only an AWESTRUCK TOURIST… ACCEPTS… that GOD created ALL THAT IS for ALL THAT IS!!

Only an AWESTRUCK TOURIST… MANIFESTS… Gratitude in ALL THAT IS!!

For Gratitude… leads… ONE!!

Romancing Destiny ;)

Well well… another girly post… now I guess, I am beginning to see a little different side to romance, than I have romanced all my life!! The power of romancing my dreams to reality so long, that romancing in any other format, is but a brief flight of fantasy. A short walk on the side line of a perfectly power manifested life .

My idea of Prince Charming, well, has kept changing shape and density, with each prospect I met. As I look back with Gratitude… I can understand how wonderful each of them are… each bringing me closer to understanding what I truly do want from a relationship… and I realise… the reason for my inability to hold on… hold strong and take any relationship to the AISLE conclusion has nothing to do with the individuals… my decisions were never about them to start off with…

Well, that calls for a round of applause… for each of you, who tolerated me… spoilt me rotten… gave my dreams priority, still loved me enough to let me be me and last but not the least… married your perfect soul mate… that I may never look back with regret! My today is so beautiful because of YOU!! Thank You!!

Much to the grievance of my kid sisters ranting over the years… that I needed to mellow down a little… as they put it… “Dee, you are so intimidating, you need to mellow down. No man will tolerate your tantrums beyond a point. You need to take care of yourself, lose weight and learn to be more woman like” Trust me… I did try… ha ha ah… with comical results… I suddenly became a damsel in distress… looking out for boyfriend dearest to come up with solutions… so he’d feel good about taking care of things for me… DISTRESS SIGNAL… all his solutions… well.. turned out to be “Ignore it Raja, you don’t have to worry about things that don’t have anything to do with you”… well, that meant… stopping being the natural “Free Consultant” to manifesting love and excitement in the many lives I work with… to disconnect with them… I felt disconnected with the ME, who loves… connecting with people and learning.

oops!! and may I add… this is how… we (my happy ex-boyfriend and I) began to get to know each other and like each other too… . When he found my profile on Orkut… the free advice… by the post… built his curiosity enough to send me a friend request

Some of us, are geared for life by understanding that the greatest source of our joy and happiness comes from within us… waiting to exhale and BE!! More often than not, therefore, we come across as

SELF ABSORBED (which we are), we’ve managed to learn a lot about ourselves first… our pluses, minuses, weaknesses, strengths, positives and negatives…

INTIMIDATING (which we seem to do quite unintentionally),

ARROGANT (maybe, but we’ve spent a quality part of our lives, depending on ourselves).

RIGID (we know what we want, it’s sad that you see it a bad thing),

JUDGEMENTAL (We may sound like that… we have learned to defend ourselves enough to take responsibility for our own actions and lethargy… we don’t blame you for it… do we? We’re pretty aware of our weaknesses, we’ve chosen to embrace them… and work on them pretty conveniently).

LONERS well yes… only on Valentine’s Day though… when the whole world is walking in two’s!! For the rest of the year… well… we have so many dreams working themselves into our reality… that more often, we NEED our own space to allow ourselves the pleasure of being absorbed in making them realities… trust me… with a vision in your mind… there is very little time to be lonely… so many thoughts keep racing through our minds… waiting to CONVERT into something more concrete!

FLIRTS… well WE ARE!! We flirt around with the idea of being in love… all the time. Often finding someone who doesn’t fit the bill… to confirm for ourselves the relevance of why they don’t (just being mean ) We FLIRT around with finding solutions to life’s problems… Just like, life flirt’s around with our single status to remind us of what LIFE WOULD LIKE US TO HAVE! We constantly flirt around with the status “COMMITTED” to test our threshold.

IMPATIENT we ARE!! We take a lot of impulsive decisions and watch them evolve!! We find it difficult to understand, why people take forever to take the next step… sometimes, we realise, they’re still looking for “LOOPHOLE” to fix before they take the BIG RISK!! That means they’re not confident of themselves… it rarely ever has anything to do with us! We don’t understand how people can hold on to a story long enough for it to be cancerous… life is too short to WAIT for the RIGHT MOMENT… NOW is the ONLY TIME you have… every decision we make is in the NOW, then why make us WAIT… Do you think we’ve got nothing better to do… than WAIT… for you to FIX the UNBROKEN, till you actually land up breaking it… to FIX IT!!

Ha ha ha… I could go on with this list… and love every word that it represents… YET today… the purpose is to lay to rest… the JEST and let you in to the secret of Prince Charming that I NOW hold in my vision… He is, somewhere, looking to find ME… then again… He is meant to RECEIVE the COMPLETE ME!! The PACKAGE DEAL of madness… dreams… and absolute confidence… that LIFE is COMPLETE as it IS!

I don’t know HOW… but I KNOW he’ll find me… and when he does… I’ll KNOW it!! For in all that I am… HE already IS… waiting to evolve again… with me… into WE!!

Happy Valentine’s Day to ALL OF YOU!! May you be complete in who you are before you BEGIN to EVOLVE again… with more love than your heart can imagine…YET!!