Wednesday, March 31, 2010

DeeButterfly

When you are committed to making the greatest changes in your life, you reach a point of frustration that is orchestrated by the difference of the speed of your mind and the speed of movement related to what your mind tells you.

In keeping with the tradition of being volatile comes another idea… maybe this times I’ve been given is to be able to get my thoughts together and learn to love the moment just as it is…. SLOW. Like Auro says in the movie Paa, “ I hate slow motion” . Then again, when I sit down to really think…. well… slow motion is a gift…. and the idea isn’t to figure out what is going to happen, its about letting things happen and the looking back and saying wow!!!

Does the butterfly know that it is pollinating the flower? NO. Does it wait to find out the result… I wonder!!! Such, I guess, is life. Continue doing what you know to be right… even if it is writing articles that no one reads…. your job right here and now is to write… and that should be your only focus.

Years ago I had subscribed to an Affirmations newsletter, Jeff Stanniforth’s. Brilliant stuff… each week I would look forward to the mail and start practicing each affirmation…. I wonder if it truly helped… oops… I don’t remember any. Butterfly at work again… one affirmation to the other and one direction to the next.

Talking about Butterflies… My professional life too has been a pollinating experience… Jr. Exec Events, Reception cum Executive Assistant, Associate, Jr. Executive-Corporate Sales, Client Servicing manger, Senior Manager – Client Servicing and Special Events, Group Head-Special Projects, Mirchi Activation Head-Mumbai and now Visionary… well… for 10 years, that is a lot of pollinating ;) The joy of the journey is in retrospect and I’m loving it.

I still continue to be… Dee. By the way, a friend of mine, christened me Dee. A new identity formed, scaled new stems… reached out for new flowers and today Dee has become the name the world knows me by…. I always told him he had star power…. every woman he has ever known… has become a star…. he doesn’t realise how brilliant it is to know him…. Thank you Buboo… you know it when you read it!!

A friend of mine once asked me to come and visit his team and give them a talk on my version of being positive!! When I spoke, I knew not what the need of the hour really was, I wasn’t too sure I was ready to start walking the DeePositive talk so soon. When I opened the conversation with his team. I realised 1 very special thing about the power of being a positive thinker…. when it is time to lead, the thoughts seem so inspired not by your own need to feel good, there is a sense of belonging to a greater family of humanity. Most of the time, when I am blessed with a chance to share, the thoughts seem to be channelled through me, often, just what needs to be said… what a brilliant gift to accept and enjoy, makes troubles seem much lighter and the soul so much stronger!!

I am a butterfly, I better fly… a new direction beckons and life will never be the same.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Nostalgia… thy memory is frozen!!

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I wanted to write a story and yet when I went through the pictures… words simply seem to elude me.. every thought is filled with a memory… every memory a story in itself.

It isn’t the years that have frozen in time, time itself took us places matched a memory and brought a smile on our faces.

The stunning fact, for me, well, 15 years later I still feel like it was only yesterday.

Bunking PT class… hated wearing those freaking bloomers, especially with my brilliant south Indian thighs ;)

Or walking into the quadrangle in the senior school… and remembering the badminton matches, I loved or the many times I had been invited for a dressing down at Sr. Matilda’s office. The very thought of the Claudine Thevenet Hall on the first floor, brought back some awesome memories of Kaleidoscope, the strains of singing Whitney Houston with ease.

The new fixtures in the school were so easily identified… there were few… but all in perfect view… The Math Lab. the Aquarium, Basket ball ring in the middle of a partially maintained garden (What sense does it make???).

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Then came the next set of things that made a lot of NONsense!! I will not deny that it did make me giggle till it struck me as a thought… that the memories we had walked in to relive and celebrate were the flashes of pure brilliance in the way things seemed now. I wonder if batches earlier than ours ever walked these path’s again and found the same joy and pain like we did.

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The first one you see, well is right outside the staff room and right above the syllabus for the retest!!! The second one, is in the famous std XI corridor in the senior school… bloody hell… it almost made me want to wake up and shake up the nun’s who don’t seem to pay too much attention to the grand values being taught in this school and is now reflecting on the kind of artwork produced by the children. The third one… well reminds me of life in Junior school… we were taught and then the best ones would go up on the display board.

With a super grin… please read wicked ;) I remembered Jain Sir!!! I always thought he would get hooked with Ms. Panniker. I can promise you, if she reads this… she’ll kill me. I missed Ms. Neena Dasgupta, Mrs. Osborne, Mrs. Mahrukh Singh and Mrs. George. Each of them played such an important role in keeping me interested in still being in CJM.

and then there are things that I am oh so grateful haven’t changed at all. Most of the swings… the ancient lost and found cupboard… the general feeling of oops, I better not get caught by the nuns next to the door to their rooms and last but not the least… the beautiful statue in front of while we have a million memories, pictures of pride and honour. This statue has featured almost in every mention of CJM.

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and last but not the least… the most precious of all of these memories, is finding the a few of the 156+ girls I’ve spent 12 years with and sharing this moment with them… It is brilliant how we’ve discovered so much, now, of the people we spent 12 of the most impressionable years of our lives with. I feel truly blessed to have a second chance to create the relationships with these girls and I cherish each memory NOW for I’d like to tell this story of strong bonds 15 years from now…

A perfect finale……

Jesu Marie’s our pride

Jesu Marie's our pride
Jesu Marie
We'll hold our banner high
And keep our honour bright
Until we die.
For we're J.M.'s to the core
We're J.M.'s true
So lets cheers ring out free live
Long live , long live, long live jeSu Marie.

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Saturday, March 27, 2010

Bookishly Dee

Awaken the Giant Within : How to Take Immediate Control of Your Mental, Emotional, Physical and Financial Destiny!

I am now writing a review on a book I haven’t finished. The fascinating  fact is that it isn’t the book it more about the power of not being able to read forward till you have absorbed and taken action on the previous chapter that has kept the book going. I have read many books, this qualifies to be the first that has kept me taking ONE action before reading forward.

The book is brilliantly written. Its almost like having a personal mentor and if you have read it with the honesty of wanting to absorb the content… well… like me… you’ll be stuck to a chapter and find it difficult to read on till you have managed to create an experience from the previous chapter.

I’ve created my goals… fascinating… that each of these goals seems to have absorbed my thoughts and each day I notice something new happening to create the reality of each. In my opinion, this book gives you the needed push in the direction you want to take… more importantly, each of the exercises de-clutters the thoughts into major action points. No matter where you are at… it gives you an insight to where you want to be… and in doing so, you will also reach within and find that you have more to be grateful for than NOT.

another very important discovery you will make while you do the different exercises is… to listen more often than you talk… so that you can hear the guidance that comes from deep within. I know this power as intuition and have given it the joy of communicating with God. You may look at it as prompts or ideas or whatever else it is that your mind deems fit, enough to follow through.

Well. if you were to ask me… I would tell you… that buying this book was accidental, didn’t go to buy it… it was recommended strongly by the shop keeper… he insisted so much… that I couldn’t help it… I just bought it… I wonder what his life would be like if he chose to read the book that he so excitedly recommends… Its a question only he can answer and we can wonder.

If you want to truly impact your life… pick up this book… it will change the way you look at life… it will give you the foundation you need to truly live the rest of your life.

In conversation with….

…Dee. I’ve been doing almost nothing for a week and its disturbing me. Just a couple of meetings , cricket and Veer have filled up my diary for the week. Would you believe that for the last 24 hours I’ve been feeling unwell… finding it rather tiring, mentally to handle this.

Just the feeling of letting my mind wander into the vacant spaces in my life is causing more pain… for all of you who have been through this… let me know how you got out… and for those who are hearing of this for the first time… mark this space for the symptoms ;) 412594713_8fc1fa4a53

I don’t know if it is easier to bust your ass for someone else’s profit or work for yourself. In the last couple of months its been more meetings than work. I am wondering if that is the way all business starts… everyday there is a new learning and its fascinating and frustrating to learn at snail pace.

It is amazing how the point of thought changes from auto to manual. For most of us who are used to working for other people and finding all that could be set right in their processes there is an even greater pressure to create a world called business that is led by empowering the human spirit instead of burdening it with profit loss and revenue. For if you have read the lives of  people who made it big… I’ve had the joy of meeting and working with some of them… It is fascinating to see how passion led their path even when all else told them to quit!!

Making this frustration count is the story that must be told. You need to fight the internal need to take it easy to make things happen and you will be surprised how brilliant the path that unfolds is… there is a special excitement in the unfolding.

The power path of gratitude during this phase is the most intriguing…

Presentations that used to be 60 minutes of work have how converted to 60hrs… in thanking God for the blessing of being able to complete it… was a prompt to call a friend I’d promised to call… the learning… “ Get yourself to a Cafe Coffee day or a Five Star Hotel lounge and make your presentations… It gets done in a flash” . In accepting that things are going at snail pace is a realisation in itself I guess. In meeting or getting to know more people who are possibly headed in the same direction, the fascination that there is more to what I can do than I can’t.

Another brilliant understanding, well, you need a space you define as office to get into the mode of WORK. Simple, we associate home with rest, comfort and relaxation. Therefore, working from home, slows the pace of work. You take more breaks than you’d take while in office. Things to do at home continue to come in focus and take most of your time and attention. There is also this overwhelming need to switch on the TV and check what’s airing… just for a break… that takes up enormous time.

20070813-16-coloursThe connection between the calls you get are the thoughts you think. When I need a little bit of advice or want to share a thought manifested … more often than not… the phone rings… it usually is a call from someone who will not only listen patiently, who will also point to a possible way forward. The fascinating fact about being in this phase is that, it takes moments like writing these thoughts and making new foundations for remaining fascinated by the process. Till I started writing this piece, I didn’t realise how precious every manifestation really is… I am thankful, more now, than ever for every frustration… in sharing it… unedited from the core of my being comes the realisation that all is SWELL in my abundant world.

Got to sign out now… I’m waiting for another answer and the phone is going to ring ;) 

Friday, March 26, 2010

Technically ... I’m not a fan


There are times when a thought just doesn't let you sleep. Its quite unlike me to wake up with a thought I must write about, there are times though when thought needs action... and when its a special thought... well!!!

Its strange, we lost a match we so wanted to win... and yet the bitterness of the loss is all but forgotten the moment Mahi, the losing captain speaks to Bhogle, was it Bhogle... oops... will need to check the statistics of the match... It is always so pleasant to watch him... each time... I just get more fascinated.     What happens when you get fascinated is that often you see no fault, feel the pain and wish you could just quickly bring back a smile. Mahi makes the Chennai Super Kings the coolest team in the world. It is fascinating to see this team on the field... it's always a team performance... they all either play really well... or inspire their opponents to play even better cricket. Amazing to just get a chance to watch them.

People are talking about Chennai being the possible winners of the IPL this year and yet the statistics as we know them now, Chennai stands at 5... DD won a brilliant match earlier today to take possession of place no. 4. Have to mention the most brilliant catch I've seen of recent times... AB rocked!!! For the next 10 balls, each time the camera focused on him... you could see his expression was still... "that most qualifies for the most exemplary catch of the season... and I still can't believe I took it." Delhi did real good to let Bangalore know that they need a wee bit of grounding once every few matches, that is how the semi finalists will be a last minute surprise... oops... did that sound like I meant that the IPL seems rigged to perfection! Sources tell me that Chennai doesn't stand a chance and that this year, it will be the Mumbai Indians who will walk away with the title... ahem ahem... With Watson coming, Rajasthan Royals will get the much needed extra punch... KKR needs a complete make over... Gilli has Deccan under control... Punjab has such a talented team, just short of confidence when they need it the most... beating Chennai the other night made them a little over confident, which is why it was easy for Rajasthan Royals to destroy their confidence with a few quick wickets... someone needs to tell them that all matches don't end in Super Overs... that they are lucky that Hayden played the mongoose... or they would've lost the match... Oops!! I've done it again... shot my mouth off about things I don't know much about... just observe a trend and give my Honest Opinion about it ;)

Back to my favourite subject...Mahi's return to the team today.

I believe the race to the finals has begun, much to my surprise, for the first time I noticed him upset... the fielding was all over the place, the bowling needed more discipline and I guess the Chennai Boys just needed to lose this one for sure to come back in a big way in the rest of the IPL. Mahi manages, I guess, to bring out the best and worst in his team. They dote on him and seem to be mortified as well... often trying to win, instead of purely winning. I am so proud of Raina, what a brilliant and responsible knock today... 83 off 52 ... being captain for 3 matches has brought out the star in him... maybe... a brilliant idea would be to let the boys be captains for a day in practice sessions for them to understand the power and trust that one person needs to have in the 10 others to be able to lead them to victory, the fact that Mahi is back shouldn't mean that they'll just let go of their individual strengths and WAIT for him to play a captain's innings in every match.

Chennai Chennai Super Kings... well... darlings you ROCK my IPL world... especially your captain... while he so humbly talks about how much every cricketer can learn from watching Sachin play today. I think people can learn so much more just following Mahi more closely. This man has truly fascinated atleast the most non cricket person I've known... ME. There is so much to learn from the determination and confidence and brilliance of Mahi that the lucky people who know him well can vouch for... and my fascination for over 2 and a half years is witness to. I could go on and on and on and on... if given a chance... but then this post won't remain technically fascinating ;)

So, technically, this is my first post on the IPL... just to let you know... that the 4th Umpire is a woman fascinated by the captain Mahi enough to not only support his team, make it her own and learn more about a sport so she can make her 'silly point' about.

Before I sign off... Here's my prediction... Its DD, CSK, Mumbai and KKR in the semi finals and CSK Vs MI in the finals... My gut instinct says its Chennai Super Kings year... its special... not because it's MY team... it's because it's a consistent team filled with fantastic cricketers who deserve to win. All the best to the rest of you and all your teams for the Semi's.

I guess my next CSK post will come on Sunday... when they play RR... a match to truly watch out for... I know I'll be watching it with hardcore RR fans... Mahi will make it look easy... Hayden and Raina will shine bright... for now... Chennai Chennai Super Kings :)

Saturday, March 20, 2010

MahiFesting II


When I first chanced upon the joy of manifesting 11 years ago, the point of introduction was FAITH. The place: Divine Retreat Centre, POTTA. The understanding WHOOPIE!!!

Back then, I knew no technique or didn't have too much insight on the working of miracles. I just BELIEVED and life manifested its glories one at a time. The gift continues to be faith that Jesus created me super special... for super special reasons and even though it may sound way out of the normal... well it has been true for me today, as it has been for all the years I've chosen a path more through instinct than distinct knowledge about it. I have believed this for so long that super special reasons to be thankful come up each and every moment of my life. Keeping a gratitude journal can sometimes be a true pleasure and very time consuming... when you truly assess all that you need to be grateful for.

The other day, as I sat and wrote in my gratitude journal, while I thanked, I thought, I heard, I was confused and then I decided to dwell on the thought and figure out the trigger or the reason why the thought is repeating itself. I have come to realise, when you do reach the trigger of any change in your life, it has an unlikely HERO of an incident that initiated that shift.

In the last 3 years, I've been developing my ability to follow my instincts and that too has come from a very unusual source. For those of you who have known me and know me, know about the Dhoni chapter. My fascination with the man and the many manifestations seeded by instinct and confirmed by results. It's such a brilliant rush to even remember them right now that it fills every thought with a million memories that seem to have created super impact points in my life. Where I am today is a result of the trigger of that one moment and the brilliance that it has brought to every other area of my life.

While being fascinated with Mahi, well, I learnt a trick or two about following my instincts... I learnt how to take an action immediately, based on an instinct. Learn to look at the brighter side of things (this applies, especially to the few matches we've lost), control on my cigarettes... ha ha ... it makes us lose games ;). For the first time I am a fan of a cricket team... I know all the players by name and slowly getting to know their game ;) I find it easy to take up a challenge and simply believe that it shall come to pass and the bigger lesson... well... letting go. Brilliance, is to find the pattern and predict. I've even learnt how to visualise and manifest... many lessons ONE crush and growing strong each day.

What all did I manifest before I discovered the hidden lesson of following my instincts??? Well, 2 phenomenal matches at Delhi... both times, Chennai Super Kings beat Delhi on their home ground. Actually meeting with him and chatting up with him... can't complete this without mentioning Divya Puri, who actually dragged me and made me say "Hello" and stood beside me, whispering in my ears about this being MY DREAM... and the pumping up statements of JUST DO IT!! Love you Divya for the bestest present as a friend ever. Another person who I cannot finish this piece without mentioning, well Tania Suri, who did a number special little things for me and made me smile. Whenever she would get a picture of him, she'd promptly mail it to me or call me the moment she saw him or spoke to him. I guess I spoke so much about him to so many people that most of my friends often think or call me the moment they see him. How exciting, since it has resulted in more calls from friends and the trigger is something as omnipresent as Mahi on a hoarding. What was even more fascinating than meeting him, was the ability to differentiate between being a fan and being fascinated and actually telling him about it. Maybe, in a brilliant way, not closing the circle of the meeting, he still owes me a picture which I took a rain check on ;) I was surprised to have noticed the fact that the meeting was a manifestation of exactly how I thought it would be, nothing more, nothing less. Also, made me realise that anything is possible with me I just need someone to drag me to do it. The phenomenal result, well, I've heightened by manifesting prowess.

He doesn't even know me... He met me only once... I just know that there are more special moments that will manifest from this manifestation someday soon, triggered by the acknowledgment of the lesson. Someday soon, you may hear him mention me : ) another manifestation waiting in the wings.

Here's what I want for you, when you read this. I'd love for you to flip through your memories to search for your lesson, acknowledge it. Think of all the UNLIKELY Hero's in your life, that have created the person you are today. Acknowledge the brilliance of your life, special, just the way it is. I feel blessed to have a story to share and I hope I have been able to trigger a new process of manifesting... or as I would like to now call it... MahiFesting. The very name feels like a celebration in itself.

To all my friends who giggle and grin... love you for listening to me ranting about him all the time... like a love sick puppy... a few manifestations later, these will be the stories you tell of me... glad I created a memory you won't forget. I'll remind you to tell me... 10 years from now... when we laugh then... it will be nostalgia of own growing older and kinkier ;)

Office to Blog

A friend of mine suggested that I use the Microsoft Office to create my blogposts using Microsoft word. For the love of wanting to learn, I racked my brain silly with the Office 2003, frustrated, I downloaded the fonts I needed only to realise something even more special, that once you've published the material, the font seems to have changed its look to suit the computer or maybe simply frustrate me more into exploring the "possibility" of finding out exactly how!

It's a blessing, I can promise you, to sometimes just let go and WAIT!! Since I have finally found how to do it... Yes my darlings... all the wonderful people who already know it can giggle... and the ones that don't... well... a "thank you" on the list of comments would be super!!!

If you're reading this post... its MISSION SUCCESSFUL!!!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Off to School!!!

 The plot came alive on a 120 minute “owl time” conversation (0130hrs to 033ohrs) between Ruchita and I... The plan... let’s catch up... the thought... where, when and who. The next person we needed to loop into the madness... Sonali Malik... the previous edit of this note... kinda forgot her... since of late... well.. I've been taking 2 people for granted... Ruchita and Sonali.. and so...ooops forgot to mention her in the excitement of meeting up with 2 more girls.. ha ha... promptly got a call.. and got fired... Sona I love you girl... mistake to ye hai... ke auto mental metion hai tu... likna bhool gay... sowee :)
Ruchi (Khanna) Tandon, helping her Dad at the book counter on Open Day at CJM sealed the venue. We actually wanted to go and help!! Help the parents to realise their kids could grow up to be like us... or take them out of CJM and let them get still worse... ha ha... sometimes I wonder what life would’ve been like had we not been CJM’s pride.

Friday... was the day that we wanted to let everyone know... so 3 facebook status messages ensured that all the YOURS MINE and OURS on the list got a chance to know where the meet was being planned... beyond that cellphones zindabaad!!! Sonali Malik, Ruchita Chachra and I ... all were into the thick of it!! We were actually hoping really, that a few other's would pop in just to say "hello"
Saturday, 13th March 2010
I woke up really early, just waiting for Ruchita to let me know what time she was leaving Gurgaon to get to school. I don’t remember being this excited to get to school too often, other than the days when the Prima Donna had to take stage and sing Whitney Houston numbers, note for note. Today was just as special... we decided it was going to be!!!
Was the last one to reach... of course duly kept on time check by Geetanjali, what was even more exciting was catching up with 2 more girls, manisha ‘Gogia’ Sethi and Ruchi ‘Khanna’ Tandon. 
Just had to share the facebook monitoring Geet did till we got to school... She was awake, to ensure that we all remembered things that she was convinced we would forget. 

Thursday, March 11, 2010

A new font

There are times when the triumph of a child is way louder than that of an adult... the 10 year old in me found a font I'd like to use and then found a way to use it on my blog.
Feel like a child who has just found the toy she’s been looking for, forever and a day. By the way this font is a cool font to have Segoe Print… I don’t know about you, but I so totally love it. I don't know where you can find, I did on Microsoft Office 2007. I don't know how long this font is going to fascinate me... for now... well its my top favourite.
Yippeee!!! I am super excited… will update you on the other things I find and may prove to be quite useful to other new bloggers. 

Farmville

10th March 2010... Level 70
All good things do come to an end... this has too. Farmville has been a really good friend and sometimes a huge pain in the butt. The addiction when I started this game, well, was so much, that I used to call my mom at 11 in the night to tell her to harvest my farm. For the first 10 times I called her, she of course wanted to kick me in the butt... by the eleventh time, well, it was natural for her to check on my farm ;)

Today she has her own farm on Level 46 and is the kind farmer for 6 other people including my sister. Have to say, this is a super addictive game and I totally love it. Brilliant for people like me who have short term memory... has helped me remember WHEN I need to harvest ;)

Hari introduced me to Farmville... started my farm with me... then got busy with work... he's at Level 32 now, his plants keep dying and Balaji and I find ways to revive them enough so they can die again.

Made some truly fantastic friends on farmville, we've never met, each day I am greeting with a farmville gift from them and simply love sending them gifts in return... Arun, Sudhir, Rachna, Sylvia, Christel, Joe, Madhureddy, Lisa, Linda... the list is too long. Thank you all for making Farmville so much fun.

A class friend of mine, Devika... is a total Farmville hater, Farmville even featured on her status one day in the quest of finding out how she could HIDE all the updates, I guess, I wasn't the only farmville freak on her list of friends. I hope she found the way to do just that.

Another brilliant friend, Ashok, who stayed away from Farmville for long enough to get stress calls from me to please harvest. He would keep grumbling about the darn thing while he harvested my farm for me. Ha ha ... Ashok is now successfully farming for TWO... him and his brother Alok. Well done!!! Both farms are doing well and so are the farmers.
Ushangini Wadhwa, is the youngest farmer I know, All of 7 years, this little lady comes back from school, switches on the computer so she can get along with farming. Super.
There are also some neighbours who just don't seem to move up the leveladder... we all became neighbours and they've gone into freeze frame... Geetanjali, Shaju, Rodney, Priya Mohan... you've been on the bottom 5 of my list since the day we became neighbours on farmville... love ya dudes, I am sure you've found even more interesting games to play or things to do!!

Farming, made really interesting by Zynga, dudes you'll rock, so totally. Mom, Roopa, Prema, Komal Mohit, Ashok, Jagdish, Sweety, Sally... I love the competition kinda building up between you'll its fun to keep a track on what you'll are doing... Prema, well is now on Level 40 considering she only started her farm in January, that's huge progress... wicked... I just loved using all the stuff I had to learn one day at a time and executing it on her farm.

The level will not change no more... and there will be no excitement in getting past someone else... the XP will continue to build with each day... I hope Zynga will think of something special for their Senior Citizens in Farmville.

Here's wishing all you farming...Happy Manifesting your levels!!

Monday, March 8, 2010

Chennai Chennai Super Kings!!

Needed the IPL schedule... found it... and so here it is... my special matches are marked in bold... loving the excitement already... Chennai Chennai Super Kings!!!

My date with the IPL... 19th March 2010. Yipeeee!!!