The Secret of Deepanjali

I began using the power of manifestation LOOOOONG before, I was led to the book... or the video... or was gifted this community.
For me the journey of manifestation began way back in 1995... when I went through the lowest phase of my life... Life as I knew it... crashed around me... and all that was left was a lot of FAILURES to deal with... and my best friend... then and now... Jesus stood by me like a rock... I would share my thoughts with my diary... often writing what I was prompted to... often these sentences would almost read like a fairy tale with the perfect mix of everything I dreamed of being all that I wanted....
My faith was SHAKEN... not BROKEN...
And I continued to focus on the silver lining on the grey clouds that filled my life... lotsa grey clouds made their way... but my focus remained the silver lining.... and the fact that I had always believed that I was a completely special creation of God.... to special to remain down forever...
5 years later... I started floating back... and I knew in my heart... that this was the fall before the rise... and that when I would rise... well... the world would watch....
A retreat at the Divine Retreat Centre in Potta was the turning point... I experience the presence of God in my life... and surrendered to his holy plan... with the promise... that I would share this grace with others... that is when my journey started taking a new shape... people would come to me for help... and instinctively I would know what to tell them... knowing that I had promised to share.
Trust me... when I tell you.... the millenium year was the year that I started seeing results... God's grace... and lotsa gratitude... later.... I started the climb to where I am today...
Regrets... I have none... for the bad times were lessons in disguise... and the good times... the fruit of total belief in myself.
Today, I have everything I only dreamt of... in the pages I wrote... and all that is left to be achieved... are the things I did not believe I could achieve

The Long Drive Home

There was never a moment of truth that was so in the face… I walked out of home feeling a little excited… a little worried… a little lost… and a little skeptical.

The drive did not feel that long at all… It was filled with a million thoughts… lilting music…. And… lots of traffic enroute to my destination.

I maneuvered the car into the parking lot, turned off the engine and breathed… I was now feeling the butterflies in my stomach… and a tingle in my spine. I was going to finally meet him… and this wasn’t a dream.

A few minutes later I was at the arrival hall, looking for a familiar face… the flight landed 15 minutes early… and I was feeling lost. I wondered if he did take the flight… maybe…he hadn’t… maybe he saw me and decided otherwise… and from yet another perspective… well… I was wondering if he was watching me… from somewhere close… then I saw a missed call on my phone… it was him. He was already waiting for me… he had already spotted me… and he watched me look for him… famously 10 minutes later than the scheduled time of arrival.
A few phone calls later… and making me feel really guilty for not being able to spot him… and walking past him twice (trust me when I tell you… I didn’t even expect him to be on that side of the arrival lounge… closer to the pre paid taxi stand.

I said “Hi!”and hugged him… I did not ever feel that I only just met him… it felt like we had known each other forever… and were meeting after a rather long break (one night, a week before he arrived in my life, we actually spoke about how this moment in time would feel like… and we both felt the same)… the reality of the moment… well… exactly what we thought.

The drive home was filled with conversations in spurts… for it was amazing just to be together… short sentences… smiles… updates… and just small pieces of information to make each other comfortable and more smiles, more glances and yes many attempts to ruin my concentration on the road ;)

35 minutes later we reached home… Morris, still wanting to pinch himself to ensure that he wasn’t dreaming.

A New Start

Have always been the first to bail out… but here I am … 3 months later… completely enjoying the fun of being as adventurous as I possibly could’ve and still finding the same solace and same excitement as I write this piece.
She dreamt of love at first sight and spoke of it with childlike belief. But often she would be the first to walk back from a great challenge… we all know better as a RELATIONSHIP… she knew exactly what was required to be done and where she needed to change and yet she would simply stand back and look at like in retrospect and wonder. For her… love was always something that would happen to her and she would never have to look back and read old letters…. The ones that still brought a tear to her eyes of love she lost by her own fault and yet here she was standing waiting for this MAN who she imagined would be her knight in shining armour who would come into her life and rescue her from…. None other than HERSELF… for she had built this unique wall around her that would often suffocate her and yet she felt safe there for most of her life… there was nothing more she wanted than to be loved and yet her greatest fear was …well… to fall in love.
Sometime in her life she wished for love so pure that she felt it in her veins… and knowing her… she hid it well… often, being able to tell the world what to do and how to handle their relationships came easy to her and yet right now she was looking for a way to handle her own relationship.
She met this man… someone older and wiser. She did not know what the future held… but what the heck, what was the point of not falling in love and letting all the insecurities in the world get to her. She knew in her heart that it was the time to take a risk and move forward. The fear of losing herself kept diminishing as the day to meet her lover kept nearing… she quietened all the demons of her mind and set them free… free to be the demons they wanted to and yet she let herself fall in love. Knowing not what the consequences of this love would be… for she had only just chatted with him over the internet.
There were so many questions that popped up in her head… “What will meeting him feel like? What will the moment be like? Will my heart beat slow down or fasten? ” . Many thoughts filled her mind as she drove to the airport to meet him for the first time…
………………… stay tuned