A New Start

Have always been the first to bail out… but here I am … 3 months later… completely enjoying the fun of being as adventurous as I possibly could’ve and still finding the same solace and same excitement as I write this piece.
She dreamt of love at first sight and spoke of it with childlike belief. But often she would be the first to walk back from a great challenge… we all know better as a RELATIONSHIP… she knew exactly what was required to be done and where she needed to change and yet she would simply stand back and look at like in retrospect and wonder. For her… love was always something that would happen to her and she would never have to look back and read old letters…. The ones that still brought a tear to her eyes of love she lost by her own fault and yet here she was standing waiting for this MAN who she imagined would be her knight in shining armour who would come into her life and rescue her from…. None other than HERSELF… for she had built this unique wall around her that would often suffocate her and yet she felt safe there for most of her life… there was nothing more she wanted than to be loved and yet her greatest fear was …well… to fall in love.
Sometime in her life she wished for love so pure that she felt it in her veins… and knowing her… she hid it well… often, being able to tell the world what to do and how to handle their relationships came easy to her and yet right now she was looking for a way to handle her own relationship.
She met this man… someone older and wiser. She did not know what the future held… but what the heck, what was the point of not falling in love and letting all the insecurities in the world get to her. She knew in her heart that it was the time to take a risk and move forward. The fear of losing herself kept diminishing as the day to meet her lover kept nearing… she quietened all the demons of her mind and set them free… free to be the demons they wanted to and yet she let herself fall in love. Knowing not what the consequences of this love would be… for she had only just chatted with him over the internet.
There were so many questions that popped up in her head… “What will meeting him feel like? What will the moment be like? Will my heart beat slow down or fasten? ” . Many thoughts filled her mind as she drove to the airport to meet him for the first time…
………………… stay tuned