Entrepreneur Diaries: VISION is your Perfect Mate ;)

Today’s a light in thought day!

I just realised I had a brand new answer to the “why is someone like you still single?”

Smart Mind says: “Oh just tell them that you’re married to your Vision and that you now have two children, Intertainment & Foundation. That your Vision supports you and your children are still too young for you to have an Extra Marital Affair!

 

The one major lesson you learn as an entrepreneur, especially in the first TRIMESTER ( the first 3 years are the most volatile years) is that the more you become the brand, the brand grows through you and with you. It is a transformational experience both in the way you perceive and how you perceive life in general and work in particular.

A wonderful metaphor for raising your thought to HOW AN ENTRERENEUR should THINK, is to METAPHORICALLY transform your VISION into a LIFE PARTNER, someone you LIVE with 24/7 and may not always agree with or have great success with, yet, appreciate and learn from and learn to live with, over a period of time.

That one moment, when an VISION becomes central to you and you can’t do without it or get cold feet when you need to take action… well that is the moment you make the ultimate commitment, you either MARRY the VISION or ditch it. Divorces in real life, now seem like a sign, that there is a larger community of us who are “relationship claustrophobic” something I realised about myself late last year, and decided to REMEDY with intent in 2013. Fascinated, I am at HOW, one decision to CLEAR the block, has really filtered in many areas of my life. IF ALL OF LIFE IS CO-INSPIRED AND DESTINED, we are called to perspective changes in ALL AREAS OF OUR LIVES.

The Vision creates new relationships, you network, you share, you begin a life together. There is usually not a thought, word or deed, that doesn’t have a connect with your vision. CAUTION: This is the time, when people think you’ve lost your marbles or sold them to the “kabadiwala”, they snigger, they will tell you that you’re dreaming, the world is not a safe place to dream, they want to know how you are really securing yourself financially the most famous question “what is your revenue model”. Everyone, knows your vision, ONLY and ONLY by words, they haven’t met or seen it YET! There are always more reasons to ditch a VISION if you don’t feel like it will give you RESULTS/OUTCOMES/REVENUE and above all, SECURITY! When all of the deterrents haven’t made you change your mind, you are finally and truly committed… and you begin to CREATE with your VISION and that is when the real TRYST with destiny begins! The longer the courtship with vision, the more settled the emotions are… you’ve hated, dated, had your tantrums, been jealous, felt insecure and then comes the BIG MOMENT… Then comes the thrill, you speak, you romance, you make love to the vision, till you begin to feel and know the vision, like it was another person… and ideas are born!

This is the beginning of PARENTHOOD: Vision + You = Ideas

Ideas are like pregnancies, it takes 40 weeks of gestation, then again, there are premature ideas, miscarriages, abortions, surrogacies, 8 month scares and hormonal changes, mood swings, bloating, swollen feet… oh well, this is starting to read like a pregnancy manual! Then again, the truth is, you go through phenomenal changes, when an idea is set to become an identity, in entrepreneurial terms… well, team, revenue, funds, marketing, sales, social media, pr, advertising, engagement, planning and saving up and scrounging! Every tiny detail is felt both emotionally and physically. The fun part is all the ADVICE simply walks in and tears your PLANNING apart, more than enjoying the process, you get bogged down by “CAUTION ALERTS”, so you keep trying to figure out WHAT CAN GO WRONG and WHAT YOU NEED TO DO “IF” it does! You always know, that if the baby is healthy and handsome/pretty, the whole lot of people will love adore and want to adopt it. YOU also figure out, that if anything does go wrong, well, you’ll be the centre of a “pity parade”. It is this moment that you CHOOSE to focus on all the things YOU need to be so that when the IDEA matures and grows into an IDENTITY, the IDENTITY is strong enough to HOLD ITSELF and make you a proud parent.

I must also add here, that as an ENTREPRENEUR in the making, this is the most CRUCIAL PERIOD, everyone expects you to DELIVER and yet, no one can actually experience, what you’re feeling or how you’re dealing with the journey. Everyone, will walk in and congratulate you… they’ll ask questions, expect answers, tell you what you’re doing wrong. Everyone also feels free to recommend doctors and therapies and food and reading material and classes and loads of other “must do”, this is the most stress inducing time for an idea. You tend to get irritable and impatient and the only support you will ever really need though, is in the relationship with your VISION. The ONE most important relationship that gets SEALED is really the relationship with your VISION. When the time comes closer, your vision is the first co-owner, co-creator and co-energy. Your VISION needs you more now, since, the idea, is part of the both of you!

40 weeks is what it takes… and in these 40 weeks, you grow with your idea and feel the idea and breathe the idea and learn to GO WITH THE FLOW of the moment. Whether MALE or FEMALE, these 40 weeks are a given, if you have to GROW your RELATIONSHIP into a LIFE EVENT… a CHILD and GRADUATE from IDEA to REALITY or COUPLE to FAMILY or INDIVIDUALS to PARENTS. This is the time really when you grow from and INTERN to an ENTREPRENUR, a husband to a Daddy or from a wife to a Mother.

Most times, we get so bogged down by the MUST DO’s that we often don’t take time to enjoy the journey! When I look back at the last 3 years of being a parent METAPHORICALLY I am filled with a certain sense of divine intervention of the key “things that happened along the way”

• I courted the VISION of “I wasn’t created to do small things” since I was 17
• Been through many relationships really… from Wizcraft, to Executive Access, to Radio City, to Showtime, a flirtation with Freelancing, and got back to Showtime, then Times of India 360 degrees before I got a surprise promotion to Mumbai with Radio Mirchi! Every relationship taught me to love what I did and learn about what I wanted. The vision wasn’t LOUD, it was just there, lurking, waiting for me to choose to COMMIT. The kind of partner that loves you enough to let you know they will always be around till you CHOOSE them above all else!
• In 2009, I started feeling like I was missing something vital in all my communication I was alone, working everyday towards someone else’s vision. I quit worrying about the future and married my VISION. To take this big step I quit life like I knew it. My VISION promised me everything I ever wanted… a family, friends, feelings and a future. The PROPSAL was simple “hi I am DeePositive, will you MARRY ME!” I said “YES” and the life changes began!
• In Jan 2010: 27th Jan 2010, I quit my relationship with “radio mirchi” and committed to the DeePositive Vision. 27th was the day I returned to Delhi with the DeePositive Vision, in November the same year, our first idea was born, Intertainment! Strangely it took 40 weeks for me to finally Announce the Birth of DeePositive Intertainment on the 15th of November 2010. ( will need another post to tell you about all that happened ; ) ) The thoughts fears, the stress, distress, changes, advice and shattered state of being. The day Intertainment was registered, was when I formally became a Mother for the first time… glad I has my little sister… Prema Evelyn to HELP me consolidate my RELATIONSHIP with VISION and our IDEA into a reality! That was the day I graduated into what I know now as the term ENTREPRENEUR! The first three months of Intertainment were filled with Congratulatory moments of pure joy… by the time Intertainment was 5 months old, my baby had created a ripple… prodigy for a new born… international clients, international events and well a whole lot of national clients and glory. Intertainment walked strong! The experience so wonderful that VISION decided it was time for the NEXT leap in creating and we decided to have a second one, soon, so that the elder one, doesn’t get all lonely, also, before we completely indulged in stressing one IDEA into being all WE knew we were meant to be! It is a “parent patent” to stress themselves planning the child’s future from the very onset, we however, wanted to parent in a very different style, we knew, we needed more ideas to divert our attention from stressing Intertainment to be our only purpose. And that is when WE took the decision to create another idea, with a more global intent and we chose to create of GRATITUDE, the force that brought us together.
• Feb 2011, an idea called “Santa workshop” became our second idea that needed to breathe and Gratitude became our intent for the growth of this idea. This time around, courtesy Intertainment and our experiences, it was a more confident and knowing journey of 40 weeks and we knew, that Santa Workshop would only be the beginning, This second idea, we were co-inspiring and co-creating was meant to be more global, universal, more potent, reach more people, change lives, change perspective and create experiences. The 40 weeks that followed our decision, well, we nurtured ourselves, spent quality experiences trying what it would feel like, to expand Gratitude into an identity and how these experiences will change the world as we knew it. Our world and the world we lived in, how both would overflow with Gratitude and create again, from Gratitude itself.
• 16th November of 2011, DeePositive Foundation was born, proud parents with a wonderful team of God Parents Ashok Singh and Prema Evelyn D’Cruz, our first dedication to Gratitude, “Santa workshop” which we dedicated to Gratitude on the 18th of November and a brand new vision of Gratitude was born, today 18 months later, Santa Workshop is a an overflowing gift of gratitude to us and to those who connect with it. Foundation has created powerful experiences and continues to create through us. Now 18months old and yet, has grown to be known by its own name. Created ripples with Santa Workshop, G.I.V.E, GOLD, L.I.V.E and now with the Intern to Entrepreneur Programme, Foundation has become an identity with its own VISION… and the courtship with Gratitude has become the NEW US!
• DeePositive Vision is Gratitude and a brand new journey has begun, I graduated from an Entrepreneur to a Visionary, just watching my Foundation chart its own path and live out another vision.

oh… this post has filled me with awe… the metaphor… so perfect… As I looked back at how far we’ve reached, Dedicated Enthusiastic Empowered and Positive vision has been a perfect SOULMATE, a LIFE PARTNER without compare! And silly me, I was getting all worked up about being 36 and single! A perspective like this can TRANSFORM into a PERFECT FAIRYTALE, a happy ever after! *sigh*

Entrepreneur Diaries: The Big Inning does have KINKS!

Just watching the carpenters work, is a thrilling feeling, I know that something is happening. This is the beginning of a brand new phase. A little nervous how things are going to turn out and yet I know that there is a divine rhythm in the way things are happening.

When I began my journey to where I am now… 3 years ago, I had no idea, how things were going to shape up. I just knew that there was something I had to do… something, I didn’t know much about and yet, most positively, the only thing I was sure of is the “have to take the risk” part of it! I wasn’t sure of what life would be like without the risk… today… 3 years later… I am so glad I began.

I look back… and the only thing I would’ve done differently, well, I may have started the “Entrepreneur Diaries” as a series earlier! However, I have always believed in Divine Timing of almost everything in my life… so maybe, right now as I begin a brand new entrepreneurial adventure, the time is right again to write again. So, as a gift to all entrepreneurs, I am going to write this column as regularly as possible, maybe, “the thing” I’ll do, just before I leave the office.

Just using the word “office” is a thrilling feeling… every entrepreneur BEGINS with an OFFICE…I have taken 3 years, by choice, to take an “office leap in faith”. I always have felt, that an office is a sacred place where you invest ENERGIES for GROWTH, yet, to this day, I didn’t feel the need to have one. Most of an entrepreneur’s work is really “communicating” and to do that… well, the INTERNET and TELEPHONE SERVICES was all that I have needed so far! Yet, now, with the Intern to Entrepreneur Programme, it is a given, that I need to create a space for GROWTH WITH OTHERS and FOR THE OTHERS that will now be a part of GROWING GRATITUDE really.

It is a given, that in the journey, there will be kinks, an entrepreneur is called to ADJUST the kinks to DESIGN the journey! Most times, this is what we refer to as our “struggle” period and this is the time, when you are more aware of “things that aren’t HAPPENING” for you. This is the phase when FINANCES are your KINK! The kind of KINK, you imagined, you’d sail through, when you began.

Then again, if the VISION is ENHANCED, the KINK is but a STEPPING STONE and I’ve just stepped over a STONE and taken a leap!

Weapons or Weigh Upon Us?

Writing has been one of my fondest escapes and the more I write, the more I discover how vast the spaces between WORD and MEANINGS can be. Discovering within me and around me an Illusion that calls to be recognised, held in front of the mirror and explored.

Mankind is at a point of “RETURN OF SPIRIT”, something not many of us are recognising, the completion of the trinity is at hand and we, the “people” are still looking for TANGIBLE proof!

It is becoming evident as you ride the wave of a more spirit filled knowing of “gratitude”, “law of attraction”, “positivism” that the calling is to move from MASS EMOTION to ME EMOTIONS! I am of the thought that this is the turning point in the way we see the world.

We are called to move away from external circumstances and precisely WHY the external circumstances have become so excruciating that we are often drawn to commit our energy and thoughts to things around us and so harsh are the realities, that even if we were to shut ourselves off from NEWS, well, the information finds other ways to get to to us and infiltrate within and create TURBULENCE. This internal turbulence is the main reason why we are stressed, uneased, always looking out for a scapegoat.

The PURPOSE, is for HUMANITY, US, to see that we need to have more AWARENESS of what is happening within US! Within us is where it all begins!

Weapons is a word I tripped upon and have been tripping on since I realised, that WEAPON in itself, in the physical realm, represents a visual real source of external destruction. These weapon annihilate, humanity. Making it easier for us to PICK EM UP and ELIMINATE external sources of TURBULENCE. While our forces use these same weapons to PROTECT us. The truth is that a WEAPON represents DEGRADATION, LESSER OF.. and eventually MAYBE NONE!

Now, how the word, is constructed in the ENERGY REALM, will give you a deeper more “significant” look at the vibration of the word and broaden your perspective and mine on the powerful weapons at large, unrecognised by the visual eyes, yet, annihilating energy and depleting HUMAN RE: SOURCE (

Human resources, vibrationally, is the “HUMAN REsponse to SOURCE” energy/vision, which ideally means HUMANS responding from a place in thought of who they really are, God Particles in the human form, therefore, from SOURCE.

Just as in an office, every employee is expected to respond from the VISION/GOALS or TARGETS of the COMPANY, so, are HUMANS called to do the same. In the case of humans, well, we all are created by the ONE FORCE, we call SOURCE/CREATOR/GOD, in my new understanding, the “infinite invisible” and we are called, everyday, to tap into the “infinite invisible” and live out the instructions. Which is also why, there is an upsurge of literature and coaching sessions, yoga, meditation, introspection, counseling  and HELP being made available to us, everyday! Inspirational/Motivational speakers are growing everywhere, with the purpose, of moving your thoughts from a place of HUMAN to a CONNECT with the DIVINE. Even the SPIRITUAL TEXTS from the ancient point out to the GENERATIONS before us, the impact points of HUMAN EVOLUTION come from CONNECTING with the UNIVERSAL SOURCE, we’ve come to know in more lay terms as GOD!

Bringing our attention back to the VIBRATION of the WORD “WEAPON”, when you say the word loud a couple of times, there is a resonance, that is if you’re tuned to the VIBRATION of the WORD, not just the WORD. Two words emerge, “WEIGH” and “UPON”, thus revealing to you that in the vibrational realm, even a WEAPON has an external purpose, which, well, we cannot IGNORE, we see the many new ways people are KILLING each other in the flesh. They’ve even begun and continue to use themselves as weapons, to kill! Rape is a huge and very powerful example of the same. 

Where weapon sounds like “weigh upon”, the plural of the same word sounds like “weigh upon us”. Now bring yourself back to your own life, what are the thoughts and feelings that make you EMOTE? Who are the people around you that make you cringe? What is the situation in your life that is causing you to feel let down or drained? What words do you use, that create a void within you? What are your fears? What are you afraid will happen, to you, your family or your immediate surroundings that makes you angry?

Now look around your social set up, what are the events that are causing you to grieve, hurt, anger and feel an emotion that is not from LOVE or of LOVE? What are the events that draw you away from feeling Gratitude for YOU and all YOU really ARE? Who makes you wish, you weren’t alive? What thoughts that are being repeated make you feel scared about yourself and those whom you love?

KNOW, I say KNOW, because KNOW is an affirmative of being DOUBT free! Know that each of these things that “weigh upon us” draw us out  of our natural state of BEINGness, are WEAPONS in disguise. Just because, we haven’t YET, recognised them as WEAPONS it does not mean they are not at work.

Think back… before WHAT WE KNOW NOW, to have evolved, MAN HAD few EXTERNAL WEAPONS and FEW INTERNAL traumas. As the NEED FOR SURVIVAL became RELEVANT… especially since we’re taught early, that we survive in a planet that BREATHES “survival of the fittest”, the more external weapons we created, the reflection of our external fear also became our internal fear. Our internal fears, created more internal “weigh upon us” and thus, now, if you look around, sickness in THOUGHT, WORD and DEED!

Thought words that “weigh up on us” : Hate, discrimination, lust, power, poverty, submission, war, catastrophe, END.

Words that  WEIGH UPON US: Divorce, abandonment, lonliness, distrust, dislike, scarcity, deprivation, disease… DEATH

Deeds that “weigh upon us” : Rape, Scams, Fraud, Murder, war, fight, anger, scarcity.

KNOW your WEAPONS … Live in Love!

The Write Vent

One of the most awesome ways to vent, anger, frustration and anxiety is to remind yourself of the age old cliché “everything happens for the best” even though the present moment may be filled with incidents and events quite the opposite. The second step… write and empty yourself of the emotions that are craving attention.

One of the most powerful life changing aspects is to detach yourself with the details and focus on the outcomes. If the outcome is promising, then you’ve got to know that you’ll get there. You won’t know HOW till it has happened. If, on the other hand you can acknowledge the emotions and the notions and the motions you experienced on the way. You’ll know the WHY first and settle in to letting the “infinite invisible” take care of the HOW of things! I have always had a firm and confirmed KNOW that GRATITUDE CONQUERS ALL!! Now is the time to ALLOW Gratitude to do its job, while I bask in the beauty of ACCEPTING that this trans|ACTION (actions of transforming)

It is in practicing all we have ever learnt or taught in our “rock bottom” moment, or so we think it is, there is phenomenal growth in practicing what we preach and preaching only that which we practice. I’ve been “God’s Brat” for way too long to back off and fall out with him. Its crazy but true, that everytime I’ve hit an emotional low, I’ve grown to a brand new high. Gratitude has been my path and will continue to fill my destiny with surprises!

So, you feel betrayed, I do, a lot of times. Then again, betrayal, when seen through the eyes of Faith. Is really a time of rebuilding. Betrayal isn’t external, its internal. We often react from external betrayal syndrome. When the truth of betrayal, is that you chose not to follow an instinct, which has repeatedly did N.U.D.G.E (Now.Understand.Dedicated.Gratitude.Empowers) at you. You saw the signs, got anxious, reacted from the anxiousness without looking within.

Betrayal has been “top of mind” recall for me. today, in the bliss of gratitude, I realised, that the SITUATIONS and PEOPLE were only indicating a LOOK WITHIN YOURSELF, HOW ARE YOU BETRAYING YOUR OWN PERSONAL POTENTIAL! Something, I hadn’t even considered, for so long! I also have a weakness, “I don’t want to hold on but most often I don’t know how to LET GO!” Ha ha … a vital piece of information delivered with so much exhaustion!

Anger comes when you realise, that you’ve been played out! People have called your bluff or you’ve called theirs! Anger is the INNER want to be in control and often comes with a lot of drama. Which is a great platform for the “unspoken” to “speak up” without the fear of repercussion. Anger, is a good thing, really, unless, well, you’ve already been carrying way too much baggage in thought. I recognised, yesterday, that ”my anger, begins with a PRESENT CIRCUMSTANCE and grows with HISTORY” You don’t realise, when you’ve lost the NOW of the anger. It’s almost like, anger, doesn’t feel comfortable when not given enough attention.

Anger, is an emotion that clears the deck, its cleansing in many ways. It reveals your deepest thoughts and greatest challenges. Gratitude, helps in cleansing it from the root! The first thought that makes you angry, is far deeper than the surface, sometimes, so deep, that you are called to be angry more often, till you reach the root of it. Anger has many friends and many deal breakers. The mind is the RESEARCH FIELD for ANGER! The thoughts you’ve acted on or reacted to or created with or created form. All are part of the “mental maths” of anger. The moment the subject is revealed, anger gets together all the possible information and trust me, once you let it pour, you’re in for a surprise!

Most often, for both emotions to flare up is in recognition of their existence. This is true, especially, when like me you’re an explosive blunt and very expressive exponent of emotions, the ride is a reminder, that all is not cleared. The drama, is necessary and vital to the cleansing. Betrayal and Anger as a combination is lethal really!

It is really the betrayal of the self that the anger is more about! Like the mind saying “Silly Girl, it about you. Not them”

Dream a Little Dream of Me!!!

The most beautiful way to celebrate “Woman’s Day” is to find the pride within… to set F.R.E.E and accept the MASTER’s PIECE within YOU!!

So, with the blessed intent to inspire YOU I am taking the big risk of opening the BIG BUBBLY that I KNOW to be ME!!

Dream a Little Dream of Me (Cover) Click it!! Enjoy it!! I know I did… while recording it!!

I have been told often… that I am talented… yet… I have kept my talent undercover for reasons only my “FEARS” knew best to this day!!

While growing up… my greatest competition has been with me!! It isn’t always fun to be “the limelight” it comes with the pressure of always “bettering your last effort” and that is an unrelenting pressure, phew!!

So, this year… as a special gift of ACCEPTING myself and all that I would like to be… I have decided to set F.R.E.E. the talents I know exist!!

The first talent I ever explored… Singing!! Sang in school, sang in church, sang at parties… even tried singing at a club!! Got applauded… for the talent… got battered for the visual (fat) girl who could never “Make it large” Then again… my voice has been my greatest gift ever… for when I sing… I live a full life through the song… I love myself more… I accept myself more… Music has been my form of EXPRESSION… and every song I have ever sung… has taught me to G.I.V.E my all to it!

So, here’s my song… my first recording… and I took this big step of actually fighting my recoding fears for a very special person in my life… my younger sister… Prema Evelyn D’Cruz who has been my “GO FOR IT, LIVE YOUR DREAM” energy. Another person, whom life wouldn’t be complete without Ashok Singh my best friend of over 24 years.

I don’t know what I am nervous about… judgment or rejection… yet… I am so grateful though… for the talent of singing I am blessed with…

In claiming my place as the LUCKIEST WOMAN IN THE UNIVERSE!! The other day… I began to see… the LUCKIEST WOMAN’s point of view… of herself… and NOW I am not afraid anymore to ACCEPT the WHY of it

I am setting my favourite talent F.R.E.E (For.Receiving.Everlasting.Enthusiasm) that I may ACCEPT that to “G.I.V.E (Gratitude.Inspired.Vision.Exchange) to KNOW.ALLOW.ACCEPT.MANIFEST!!

 

An Awestruck Tourist: If God is FOR us WHO can be AGAINST ;)

The Awestruck Tourist, is a journey of the mind and how we interpret almost everything too soon  

On Friday, in the middle of a rather hectic morning, a challenge arrived at my door… a pretty obvious distraction from what I should be doing… the gravitational pull… a lot of things I had on my mind were being answered ((I was listening to exactly what I wanted to hear… ha ha ha))

In listening to him… the many YES’ to his READINGS ….reflected some of my thought questions! Each justified the NOW of where I am… in comparison to where I could be… had these SO CALLED FORCES not been against me

Yes… I know I am a loud mouth… more often than not… I tend to tell the world… excitedly… that which is conspiring in my life. Long before it has actually happened… more often than not… I’ve allowed the “OPINIONS” of other’s to become my own… and kinda blocked the good from happening Somewhere, down the line… I’ve allowed the spirit of the external to overshadow my inner knowing… my fault really!! Then again… here was an external source… reading my mind… magnetising and creating a feeling of “Oh! The world is my enemy and I am a victim… and this person… has been sent to make things right”.

If you’re smiling… you’ve just seen… in your mind’s eye… a similar sounding person in your life.

As part of our conversation… I fell… THOUGHT, WORD and INdeed for the sugar coated “Aapka Bhala ho, sabka bhala ho” line… till it came to giving him Rs. 1100/- he had me by CURIOSITY and kept me listening… only till I remembered the powerful name of “Jesus”, quite literally!!

…. The Awestruck Tourist…

The fear of the UNKNOWN enemy is a concept we all fall prey to… when all we really need to do is take RESPONSIBILITY. When we’re all created from ONE SOURCE… then we must KNOW that we all have but ONE PURPOSE too… to CREATE!!

Thoughts are energy, without saying a WORD, they can be transferred… and reflect back to you. People can read your FEAR first… why allow them the CONTROL??

We, sometimes unknowingly, invite CORRECTION into our lives… when we DOUBT our own ability to ACCEPT, that our life’s reality is made up of our decisions… influenced by the outside. If we’ve already won the “Survival of the fittest” race, by being born… what then are we competing NOW???

When we’re unsure… we THINK… when we THINK… we radiate… and then… we receive that which CONFIRMS our THOUGHTS!!

When things aren’t RIGHT, we feel OBLIGATED to CORRECT them… why must we CORRECT… why not LEARN and implement a new PATTERN of responding?

If you have enemies… celebrate them… if you LOOK BACK… they’re the ones who made to STAND UP and STAND OUT!!

People USE the power of reading your FEARS/QUERIES and use it, skillfully!! KNOW, that when GOD guides, you are bound to have periodic tests… ASK of him to always keep you aligned to HIS WILL, HIS PLAN… stay aligned in the midst of confusion, so that you may find a new space to be completely… TUNED to the best you have to offer.

Don’t read too much into a momentary LAPSE… it is blessed… to help you understand… that your FEAR just got the better of you. You forgot a very SIMPLE TRUTH!!

“If GOD is FOR US… WHO CAN BE AGAINST??” Romans 8:31

Only an AWESTRUCK TOURIST… KNOWS… that every experience is a LESSON to stay in GRATITUDE!!

Only an AWESTRUCK TOURIST… ALLOWS… every experience to REVEAL GRATITUDE!!

Only an AWESTRUCK TOURIST… ACCEPTS… that GOD created ALL THAT IS for ALL THAT IS!!

Only an AWESTRUCK TOURIST… MANIFESTS… Gratitude in ALL THAT IS!!

For Gratitude… leads… ONE!!

Things I learnt on my way to “today”

I haven’t been too politically correct for most of my life… I’ve just managed to stay ME… and too can be pretty dangerous  

Last year, I allowed my self the pleasure of “staying out of other people’s business” ha ha ha… choosing to disconnect with a lot of energies, I realised, were pure wasting mine and I discovered!!

There are more people in the world, who want to know what you’re doing, so they can tell you they’re doing better or where you’re going wrong. I learned to be happy for them and smile a mysterious smile… it truly does piss them off, when you don’t counter their claim with sharing your tale of brags for their gossiping pleasure or better still… brag on their behalf too… not too many people can accept compliments without immediately returning the favour

I learnt that you didn’t really need a car to travel in Delhi… till it’s late at night and it’s cold outside… then again… wouldn’t it be so much more fun, to snuggle in with a great book and fall in love with writing again… when we’re old and wrinkled, these blogs will live on… to remind us of being YOUNG The time we spend on our blogs today… are the memories we’ll keep alive… for us to grow old with. Or better still… let the special SOMEONES in your life, create memories with you… that you’ll have something to smile about when life get’s TOUGH on you.

I realised, that everyone will change, including YOU!! And the moment YOU change, the way you see everyone changes… and the way they see you changes too! As long as you don’t levitate staying grounded gives you the right calculation of your height off the ground and the space you need to be YOU @ the fullest potential.

I realised that minding someone else’s business… or relationships… or moods … or needs… takes away precious time from minding the business of BEING YOU!! by the way… when you pull away from their business… they tell you you’re selfish… not realising, it’s their selfishness talking LOUDER THAN THEIR ACCUSATIONS!!

I learnt a valuable lesson, passing on the BUCK isn’t a healthy habit, it often causes you to FIND MORE FAULTS than solutions… never mind, if the risk of failure is yours… so is the grand success. Then why worry about the freaking BUCK… taking it head on… gives you a nose up in winning the CLASSIC all talk and no run… race of the survival of the fittest!

And basically… staying out of other people’s business gives you a better chance of learning more about how to make your own business… a success  

When you stick out of other peoples business… the best weapon is SILENCE in thought and word… more often than not… in the chinese whispers that follow… you’re bound to hear things that you wanted them to KNOW yet, didn’t have to say the words that would build their defense enough to offend you. It is also true… that silence is a WEAPON… that most people are AFRAID of

Remembering that you managed to stay out of other people’s business… for ONE WHOLE YEAR… PRICELESS!! Now, you can talk sense… without offending… since all they REALLY REALLY would want to KNOW is your SIDE OF THE retreat  

then again… family will always be your business and whether or not… you keep your silence… the freaking LAW says they know you BEST… so stay UNPREDICTABLE even to them… Speak only that which they want to hear from you… and do just that which you know to be RIGHT for you. IF you FAIL they’re going to love you anyway… and if you SUCCEED, they’re going to tell you, how important their part in your success is  

Relationships only grow when they’re given space… LIVE and LET LOVE… Don’t tell someone how to love you… till they ask you Allow yourself the pleasure of being loved in many ways… coz the love you ALLOW is an experience. The love you EXPECT is a disappointment… only because you may sometimes over estimate what one person is can give without even telling them what it is that you most WANT from them. And by the way… you may also have an issue, a conflict as to how much to GIVE to the relationship yourself!!

I also learnt… that spending quality time with a child can be therapeutic… they teach you to go easy on yourself and that you actually need to get three things straight in life… to get everything you’ve ever wanted…. Cry enough (without saying a word) you’ll find more people to tend to your needs that you even asked for Smile and Laugh a lot, it keeps everyone around you happy enough… to give you all you’ll ever ask for… I don’t know of one person who doesn’t like to spoil a HAPPY CHILD with their attention, time and anything else it may take to keep the child smiling and last but not the least… SLEEP a lot… it helps in keeping you in a state of rest

Your dreams come from you… focus on them… dream them into your reality… and you’ll realise… the most profitable business of all is the Business of BEing you… for you are UNIQUE in your OFFERING of YOU!!

 

I love being your PRINCESS!!

After a long while… a kinda girly post, so, don’t read too much into it… it just comes from being a brat of sorts to a very special someone. Ha ha ha… don’t get inquisitive… some secrets give more pleasure as secrets… and still.. can’t help but share it with the world in posts. Keeps the anonymity and still brims with excitement All of us have these moments… it’s a common human phase… lucky me… that I had to wait till 35 to feel like 16 again  

“PRINCESS” a magic word… it is especially when the person addressing me is someone who meant nothing till ONE FINE DAY… when a short conversation changed the very course life was taking… for the simple request to acknowledge… became an teenage experience of a giggly grin that would throw caution to the wind to experience… the wild imaginings of being 16 again… without the frills of flowers or chocolates or blind dates, yet something so wonderful, that even in thought… it can make you smile in awe… just remembering, what falling in love for the first time… should feel like.

The freedom of having nothing to lose and still feeling like the whole world just stopped by to smile back at you with a memory so wonderful… that you begin to feel a sense of belonging to royalty without a title.

Being loved suddenly has a whole new meaning, without possessing… You know you belong in thought… to a memory so beautifully presented in words, like finding a hidden object… that even though it may have crossed your visual dimensions a million times over… never caught your hearts attention till it was expressed in words… so carefully put together… with a prayer that it may be acknowledged and accepted and reciprocated.

How long can you hold your shield of ignorance… knowing that maybe, it was this KNOWING that was meant to reach you… that you may learn to ACCEPT with GRACE, the love offered, the courage of a person who could no longer hold back and said it like it was felt… fighting this feeling… can only bring on a sense of losing out on what the view this vantage point of your kingdom has to offer.

As, time passes, acknowledging and accepting how special it makes me feel that there is someone in the world, who waited, till he had nothing to fear but his “fear of rejection” to let me know, that immaterial of the consequences… chose to share this truth… I guess… that day he deep breathed as he shared a long kept THOUGHT and created a brand new space of experiences… that only his PRINCESS can understand and only he knows how it feels.

Hey There…

Thank you… for I may never be able to express in words more clear… how special you’ve come to mean to me… How much I learned about what I have missed… through you… and how many experiences are in the waiting to be revealed… thank you for inviting my attention to my PrincessNess…

Unconditional Royal…

Princess

And finally… Presenting K.A.A.M!!

Since I began writing my first book last year in April, I kept looking for the RIGHT editor, the RIGHT time, the RIGHT campaign, the RIGHT million other things!

Then this morning when I woke up, all I was hearing in my head is “Make an E-Book and release it!!” and so, like the many times in my life, that I have acted on prompt alone, I present to you MY FIRST book, K.A.A.M the power manifesting tool, that is a book presented through me, yet comes from the SOURCE of WHO I AM!! A book that in fact has only been written by me. The content, the energy of this book is governed by the ALL KNOWING and I feel blessed to have been chosen to share it!!

May the vibration of the book draw you to a deeper understanding of WHO YOU ARE and WHERE YOU CAN CHOOSE to be by PAYING ATTENTION to YOURSELF!!

Have a Happy Manifesting journey of your personal experiences through the content!!

My Gratitude to ALL THAT IS for ALL THAT IS … the source of WHO I AM… for the blessing of the manifesting of the first step of being an author!!

I feel like a child now, a little nervous in the person and very excited in spirit!!

K.A.A.M click to begin your personal journey of Know Allow Accept Manifest!!

A year of being DeePositive :))

When I decided a year ago that I did want to get into business, the business of creating memories, people call events, on my own. All I had was a thought…DeePositive… over a period of a year, the thought became the brand we now know as DeePositive Intertainment. A perfect example of thought become thing, really, and proof that THOUGHT DO BECOME THINGS

I have had the power of Gratitude to ALL THAT IS for ALL THAT IS, reveal to me some truly powerful content that became the baby steps I could confidently walk on to getting to where my reality meets my dream

There have also been extremely powerful situations that have STOPPED me short and revealed to me how my faith can sometimes become so weak that my knees totter!! I have had the voice of my EGO compare my work to that of others and suddenly my world shrinks, I am thinking a million thoughts and each one of them brings me down and tries to hold me down, I can remember a few….

“Maybe I have less work!! x, y or z is doing so much better than I”,

“How well, he/she is doing!! In comparison I am not doing too well at all!!!”

“She writes so much better than I do, no one reads my posts or comments on my blog or for that matter, is active active on my facebook page as I would like them to be”.

“Damn… the bank balance is dwindling and there are still payments to be made, even if it is to myself”

“If I have been honest in my work with other’s, why is it, that I have people crawling and wanting to draw blood from my energy”

Just reading these lines of thought creates and intense feeling from within that isn’t making me feel the power of the DeePositive ME I chose consciously to be. Yet, these are some of the thoughts that I deal with each day of living the new life I’ve promised myself

It is such a brilliant to KNOW that these are the thoughts that have helped me STOP in my tracks and take out QUIET time to RE-ENERGISE my DeePositive philosophy. On a lighter note… the moment I move away from Gratitude for the present moment, my powerful subconscious me finds a way to BRING ME STRAIGHT back to a good feeling place and begin again.

It has been an incredible life experience following my instincts ONE at a time… ALLOWING them to lead me ON. Often times, I come across as impulsive and unpredictable!! Yet I know that it’s the ONLY way I am always ME!!! I can stay still enough to LISTEN now.. and when I stress… I KNOW I’ve been talking too much

My secret wish is to share enough that each person I know may begin to radiate this same knowingness… with AWARENESS that every direction leads to your BEST INTEREST… in ACCORDANCE with ALLOWING!!!

Have a DeePositive Life… You’ll LOVE IT!!!