I love being your PRINCESS!!

After a long while… a kinda girly post, so, don’t read too much into it… it just comes from being a brat of sorts to a very special someone. Ha ha ha… don’t get inquisitive… some secrets give more pleasure as secrets… and still.. can’t help but share it with the world in posts. Keeps the anonymity and still brims with excitement All of us have these moments… it’s a common human phase… lucky me… that I had to wait till 35 to feel like 16 again  

“PRINCESS” a magic word… it is especially when the person addressing me is someone who meant nothing till ONE FINE DAY… when a short conversation changed the very course life was taking… for the simple request to acknowledge… became an teenage experience of a giggly grin that would throw caution to the wind to experience… the wild imaginings of being 16 again… without the frills of flowers or chocolates or blind dates, yet something so wonderful, that even in thought… it can make you smile in awe… just remembering, what falling in love for the first time… should feel like.

The freedom of having nothing to lose and still feeling like the whole world just stopped by to smile back at you with a memory so wonderful… that you begin to feel a sense of belonging to royalty without a title.

Being loved suddenly has a whole new meaning, without possessing… You know you belong in thought… to a memory so beautifully presented in words, like finding a hidden object… that even though it may have crossed your visual dimensions a million times over… never caught your hearts attention till it was expressed in words… so carefully put together… with a prayer that it may be acknowledged and accepted and reciprocated.

How long can you hold your shield of ignorance… knowing that maybe, it was this KNOWING that was meant to reach you… that you may learn to ACCEPT with GRACE, the love offered, the courage of a person who could no longer hold back and said it like it was felt… fighting this feeling… can only bring on a sense of losing out on what the view this vantage point of your kingdom has to offer.

As, time passes, acknowledging and accepting how special it makes me feel that there is someone in the world, who waited, till he had nothing to fear but his “fear of rejection” to let me know, that immaterial of the consequences… chose to share this truth… I guess… that day he deep breathed as he shared a long kept THOUGHT and created a brand new space of experiences… that only his PRINCESS can understand and only he knows how it feels.

Hey There…

Thank you… for I may never be able to express in words more clear… how special you’ve come to mean to me… How much I learned about what I have missed… through you… and how many experiences are in the waiting to be revealed… thank you for inviting my attention to my PrincessNess…

Unconditional Royal…

Princess

…. Are YOU ready to GIVE UP?

 

As I watched the waves hit the shore… a sense of stillness filled my soul. The stillness so powerful, that I could even here my heart beat with the joy that the rhythm of the waves so powerful invited my conscious mind to listen to it.

I reached for the phone… the battery died… a KNOWING, that the stillness was an invitation to a D.E.E.P connection with ALL THAT IS communicating with my entire being… and I lay back on the beach chair and stared into the horizon… and surrendered to the ISness of the moment…

Fascinated by the co-inspired invitation to stillness… I decided to allow this moment to come alive within me… and listen.  That is when it came alive for me…

I was receiving …

A change in the METAPHOR I’ve lived… a new self discovery… a new PERSPECTIVE … a NEW VISION for 2012…

“Are YOU ready  to GIVE UP?  TRULY KNOW, TRULY ALLOW and TRULY ACCEPT  and TRULY MANIFEST the MAGINIFICENCE of YOUR PURPOSE!! “

I reached for the phone… didn’t KNOW how to react to the THOUGHT… needed a distraction… The Phone rang, it was our driver Suresh, “Maam, I am back, we can leave when you’re ready” … As I recall this moment NOW as I write this…  I was given a CHOICE… to stay and LISTEN or PACK UP and Leave the NOW .

I listened to my heart… my heart wanted to stay and in retrospect… I am so glad I did…

“You, are at a threshold of a NEW BEGINNING… ALLOW me to give you a glimpse today into the bigger picture of your life. It isn’t a co-incidence that you are attracted to the ocean… the ocean is the holder of your vision that must now begin to be revealed to you. Be the OCEAN you are… allow the infinite wisdom of the ages to radiate to you and through you. Create ripples … of that which YOU ARE. You are the HORIZON the mystery from where CREATION begins… Take your place NOW as the OCEAN… deep breathe and ACCEPT yourself… NOW as the OCEAN”

for the next 30 minutes… there was a stillness… I could hear my breathing… and the waves danced their way to the shores… a sort of SPIRITUAL welcome celebration to invite my OCEAN life experience.

I came back from GOA yearning to feel complete again… still trying to absorb the intensity of the most important conversation ever… I’m still absorbing… still trying to find the connecting words for the rest of that which I was told… some of it… still finds me … in flashes… through… Doreen Virtue’s updates… through Oprah Winfrey… through my community… still putting the pieces together… and loving the CLARITY with which… I can NOW hear myself more clearly… and yet… so far.  I still need to stand up and CLAIM the fullness of who I am NOW… I know the words will find me soon… till then… I’ll stare at the PICTURE… the BIG PICTURE of WHO I REALLY AM…

… In Gratitude I will find my way… or better still… ALLOW  GRATITUDE to show me the way…

… In Gratitude to ALL THAT IS for ALL THAT IS!