"In death, we are reborn to life eternal"

Fr Paul A Cardoza : 1952-2005

He met our family in 1982-1983.... and was a part of us eversince...

The peace on his face said a million things...I am sharing a few thoughts that come to mind when i saw his face:

"Don't be sad for me.... I am now truly happy. I longed for you to reach out to me... and as long as i lived you said not a word that was good... now as i lie here... all of you have gathered to say wonderful things about me....where were all these words when I most needed them... you say you love me.... but what is it that you know of love.... your love is selfish and self serving...When i said "I love you" i meant it with my soul.... I lived for so long looking for a purpose... as soon as i found it... I found everything... and lost my breath.

Life for me was a series of rejections and judgements... Why did you not give me the freedom to be... Each of you wanted to mould me in your own cast... but because I was not willing you shunned me... and left me to suffer. "

The truth is .... every time mom thinks of her guitar.... she will remember him. Everytime we sisters decorate our home for Christmas... we will think of him... he taught us how to use things around the house and loads of cotton to give our home the Chritmas look. Everytime I buy crackers I will miss him... Everytime I play the keyboard I will think of him... he taught me the chords I know. Everytime I hear "Oh Holy Night" or sing it... I will think of him... I still remember the confidence he always had in my voice, esp when I was singing in church.

I guess everytime we get together : The D'Souza's, Cosme, Mark , Glenda, CS John & Joseph, Doreen, Uncle Eric & Aunty Promilla, Ignatius, Lucas, The Joseph family, Molly, The Chabra family, Gasper, Christopher... and all the others I may not remember by name.... but have been a part of the FAMOUS choir...We will all fondly remember him, each time we essay a four voice piece. Everytime we sing for a wedding...we will remember, every lesson we were taught.

He will continue to inspire us.... for he may have passed on ... but his spirit will linger on FOREVER in the choir he so loved and cherished

Enternal peace grant unto him oh Lord and let perpetual light shine upon him.... may his precious soul rest in PEACE.

In his own words : IF GOD IS FOR US WHO CAN BE AGAINST FOR THE SPIRIT OF GOD WILL SET US FREE.. Take time to listen.... don't rush

Deepa