A Dialogue with Dee

I am sharing this journal entry I had written a couple of months ago... a lot of thoughts kept rushing... today I read this which much pride... I know the path of victory. I faced my greatest fear... failure... I changed the perspective and WON.

I am looking to create my own space in a crowded world… I am born free and that is the decision I still need to take. I move from job to job in the hope of all things working out just the way they should and still … I am in a rut to make ends meet. Is this my calling???

I took this plunge and moved to Mumbai… interesting city that gives me the freedom I need to be… a brilliant job opportunity that makes me feel on the top of the world… my question to me.. well is this what you really want??? Is all this fame and money that comes with it truly going to fulfill your deepest desires? Is being locked in the chains of a million reports really going to fly with you???

And there is a need to suddenly run far away from all of this… running away may not always be the answer … my soul tells me and I stop again… wanting more answers trying to understand the deepest thoughts that come from the soul of being the person I was created to be.

This is a time for inner healing and getting back my mojo. I know that this phase isn’t truly easy… but it is the most important phase of my life… it’s the place where every decision I take will influence my entire life in the most profound manner. I know exactly what to do… but I seem to be blocking myself from doing anything… which is the most sad part of getting through this phase.

I’ve blocked the sales aspect of my life and I know that I am brilliant at it… what so totally does not suit me is to have a large shadow of LOOM hovering about me all the time… that makes me sick… in the body and in the mind… and that shall never do too much good for me at all.

I am going to let the sun shine brightly on my thoughts… and fill me with a sense of awe… I am looking forward to the very essence I know as life… for everyday shall bring into my life a new surprise… and I shall smile… bright and beaming… for love so awesome shall continue to fill in the blank spaces I have left untouched by adventure. I am a go getter… and I get whatever I go for.